Gideon Chang is BloGGing tOO..

My Valentine's

2012-02-13T21:49:00.003Z

Once lived under the same clock
Only to meet in foreign land
Were lost in time translation
Only to have met at the right moment

For any of the seconds we missed
We could have been strangers
Like any of the love stories
Coincidence has brought our fate together

Many would have written us off
We chose to be ignorant
But its our confidence and trust
That ignited the sparkles

We may not have a Cinderella beginning
Nor a Sleeping Beauty ending
Perhaps it could be just a Shrek
But every moment with you is a Disneyland

February the 14th
Happy Valentine's Day indeed
We may not be together tomorrow
But we already have our 1st Valentine's

Happy Valentine's my dear Charlene <3

CNY 2012

2012-01-29T21:28:00.004Z

Finally, I celebrated Chinese New Year at home after being away for the past couple of years. A total of 16 days at home. Been served with fabulous foods and of course lotsa laughters and catch-up to do.

(Breakfast on the 1st Day of CNY)

(Firecrackers on the 1st Day of CNY for GOOD LUCK!)

(Fireworks at night - HOW AWESOME)

(And of course love the ang pows)

(Tradition of CNY where relatives visit each others)

(Friends that got together since primary school - ACS IPOH)

Cute little bike that my cousin brought home :P

Glasses of Friendship

2012-01-02T21:43:00.003Z

Celebrated 2012 New Year with 4 friends who has gone through thick and thin with me throughout my university chapter. When everything is closed, friends are always close. Foods and alcohols may only kickstart our chats but its the memories and understanding that kept us talking till dawn.

Like the Fellowship of the Ring, I was given the Glasses of Friendship as my birthday + christmas + new year gift. I shall treasure it like a piece of myself. Only to be brought out when friends are needed. Will stop being dramatic and Happy New Year to everyone.

12 Wishes for 2012

2011-12-28T23:05:00.005Z

2012 is coming in 3 days. I'm not good with resolution. Why not I make wishes for 2012 then? I'm not greedy so I'm gonna stick with 12 wishes instead of 2012 wishes :)

1) Not Abercrombie but Abercrombie models' body

2) Yonex SHB-102LTD

3) Victor Brave Sword LYD

4) To be a registered Pharmacist

5) A pair of Gucci shoes

6) Not Brad Pitt but a Tag Heuer watch

7) A new laptop

8) iPhone 4 White

9) Samsung LED TV

10) X BOX 360

11) A valid UK Driving License

12) A girlfriend for next Christmas and New Year

Hidden Beauty of England

2011-12-27T22:42:00.003Z

<3 Scarborough <3

My 2011

2011-12-23T22:25:00.006Z

Summary of my 2011

January
- celebrated New Year 2011
- finished my last MPharm exam

February
- started my Final Year Project
- celebrated my 2nd CNY in UK
- passed all my exam
- had our CNY dinner with all Malaysian campus MPharm students

March
- watched All England and met Lin Dan
- appeared on TV/Youtube
- took photo with Wang Shi Xian as well
- Pharmacy Annual Ball

April
- Our badminton team won the Notts League Div 2B Men's Doubles and 2A Mixed
- Busy finishing my Final Year Project
- Presentation of my Final Year Project

May
- Finished my dissertation
- Went to receive the award for our Notts League achievements
- FLY HOME!!
- Reunited with my family again :)

June
- Busy eating from Penang, Kedah, IPOH and KL.
- Ate Char Koey Teow, Laksa, Dried Curry Noodles, Hakka Mee, Wan Tan Mee, Klang Bak Kut Teh, Sushi, Chee Cheong Fun, Old Town White Coffee, Beef Noodles, Seafoods, Nasi Lemak, Roti Canai, Banana Leaf Rice.
- Got the message that I passed my Final Year Project and graduate in July.

July
- Back to UK.
- Moved to Hull.
- Parents, sister, uncle and aunties came for my graduation.
- GRADUATION 14/07/2011
- Bid farewell to family in Heathrow.

August
-Started my pre-registration
-Broke up
-Birthday

September
- Got my visa approved

October
-Won the HK Notts Games

November
- Found a new gf *Charlene*
- Christmas dinner with colleagues

December
- Christmas
- New Year Eve
- A better man :)

What is Christmas?

2011-12-21T23:17:00.002Z

3 days till Christmas. Work never been busier. Can't wait till I get my holidays. But what does Christmas stands to me? Exchanging Christmas cards. Christmas presents to loved ones. To gather with family members/loved ones. Turkey/Roasted Meat for Christmas dinner. Lots of alcohol. Christmas movies. Probably a dozen more things to do that I failed to mention/imagine. Is that the true meaning of Christmas celebration? Most will agree that Christmas is about giving presents to those who matter. Hence, I conducted a test.

I have more than 950 friends on facebook. I posted a status update "Only need 60 friends to gimme 1 pound each then I can get myself a nice Christmas present. Not asking too much am I? :P". Results - My sister liked the post. Two friends commented but irrelevant. Only ONE said don't mind giving me a pound to contribute to my Christmas present. On another status update "Payday!! But can't be happy all. Dec is an expensive month. :(". Results - Two friends liked the status. One commented and concerned about my financial planning. Another two friends asked for a present and a meal. That is the stark contrast in this world. I only appealed to get roughly 6% of my FB friends list to donate 1 pound each so that I can have a decent Christmas present without being ambitious to get 1 pound each from all of them and have a mega Christmas present. In the second post, I mentioned that I was unhappy. But none concerned about my emotions but instead capitalised on my financial gain. So realistically some people will come to you when you're rich and not many will help when you are in need, while most just couldn't be bothered at all whether you are unhappy or don't have any Christmas present. Needless to point out those who requested for souvenirs/gifts when I'm going back soon but never offer a pound.

Being slightly disturbed by the harsh reality (only could blame myself for conducting such stupid test), I went to work grumpily this morning. On my way to work, it was drizzling and I saw two well-dressed lady. Then they approached me offering me a leaflet titled " A NEW WORLD". I refused politely as I knew what it was. Its a leaflet about Christianity gospel preaching to non-believers. Don't get me wrong although I don't go to church anymore but I am a Christian and I would like it to be given to those who needed it. It suddenly enlightned me the true meaning of Christmas. This two ladies could be angels sent by God to remind me about the true meaning of Christmas. Christmas is to celebrate the birth of Christ. Jesus Christ being the son of God, came to earth and die for us so that all sinners will be entitled to salvation as long as they believe in Him. He has given us the most valuable Christmas present = Salvation. Should I asked for Christmas present from family and friends anymore? Yes I would like to receive gifts but I am already holding the most precious one which is the salvation from God.

Dear friends, I would like to apologize for the silly test. Although I know many of you would have care about me if something happens to me, but I am still disappointed that I only get a pound worth of Christmas present from 950+ friends. I forgive all of you just like how I was forgiven by Jesus Christ. However, I would like to share my ultimate Christmas present to all of you. To those who doesn't believe in religion, try to give Jesus Christ a chance to fill your heart. To those who hasn't know about Jesus Christ, I can assure you that the Lord is good and merciful. To those who knows Him, please share his love to those who doesn't so that everyone will get a Christmas present.

Smile

2011-11-13T22:05:00.002Z

Gonna have to admit that I do have a face problem. After all the funny@nasty comments that my friends made about my face or how I looked, this is actually the first time I was taken a step back. I was told by my partner that she couldn't play well because of how I looked on court. She was frightened by my fierce face and doesn't like the way I looked. And so the words spread amongs the ladies and eventually came back to my ears. And I was instructed to smile whenever I play mixed next time.

Oh my dear god. I have played badminton for about 18 years. I was trained to perfect my skills. I was made to run to improve my stamina. I even worked out now to lose weight so that I can play quicker. Never did I know putting a serious face will affect my partner's performance. Alright fine. I'm sorry coz I knew when I don't smile I did looked a bit too serious. So now I shall smile. Learn how to smile. Put on a gentle face. So that she can play better. Maybe if I was trained by a sexy and young female coach who always put on a sweet smile instead of a gruesome man then I would have been the World No.1 now.

But I am very sad. No one seems to understand me. Never was I allowed to defend my face. But I will forgive those who commented my serious face during a match. You were never at my level. You are not even close to what I'm experiencing in the court. If I was partnered with someone better and I could have play more relaxing. Why do I need to put on that straight face? I have to focus and keep thinking how to get points. To compensate all the points she lost by framing the shuttle onto the net almost every single shot she hit. So the cycle went like she framed it to the net -> I frowned -> she gets stressed and can't play well -> she framed it more to the net -> I frowned even more -> LOL.

Nevertheless, I am still taking the criticism constructively. I will smile more. At same time, I will just hammer you if you don't play better when I smile. Coz I am GIDEON CHANG! I don't mess around.

Gideon the Pharmacist

2011-11-10T20:44:00.002Z

Wonder how many people have actually watch the sitcom How I Met Your Mother? Needless to explain more, its a story that a man told his two kids about his journey before meeting their mother. In the 7th season now, he has yet to meet the girl who is going to be his wife. Reminded me that I have broken up with a few girls throughout this 7 seasons. But every time he met a girl, he was so sure that she is going to be the one until something funny happened. Love his spirit. Always trust. Steer your life until destiny has shown you otherwise. One of his famous tagline in the earlier seasons "Hi I'm Ted Mosby the Architect".

Back to my own love life. What am I going to tell my children next time? I don't really know. Should I be honest? Or perhaps I could have forgotten some of them already. A few did caused an impact in my life. One changed my personality. The others changed my character. Only could say I am getting better. One need to fall down in order to stand up tall. Now that I could introduce myself by "Hi I'm Gideon Chang the Pre-reg Pharmacist", it doesn't sounds cool at all. I shall just work a little harder until the day I can tell the world "Hi I'm Gideon Chang the Pharmacist". N I would like to buy you a drink lady.

Shall stop daydreaming. I watched too much of HIMYM. I don't need to do all those things I mentioned above. I'm having a drink right now with someone. Sneak preview soon! Adios...

3 months into Pre-reg

2011-11-07T22:32:00.002Z

Hi folks!! I'm still alive. Sorry for not updating my blog that frequently anymore. I wasn't kidnapped by an alien nor I was dead. Its just that I have been going through a rough patch of life. Now that I'm back to my blog means I have managed to overcome it.

Started my pre-reg and boy working life isn't easy at all. High discipline is a necessity when you know you couldn't be late to work even a single day or else your reputation will be a goner. You can't skipped work or fall asleep while working. Have to work on alternate Saturdays as well. Have to stand for 7 hours (exclude lunch break) to work. After 4 years doing my Pharmacy degree, I was taught of every possible knowledge related to pharmacy but failed to inform me that I have to freaking stand 7 hours a day to work while I have been stuck to my seat 8 hours daily in lectures hall either sleeping or daydreaming. I would suggest that real life experience should be integrated into pharmacy course where students have to stand during lectures :P
Anyway, life has been getting better lately. Work been getting smoother and lotsa praises and attentions from 'upstair'. Hope I won't get big-headed. Financially more stable now as I am able to survive with my tiny salary. 9 months to go for my big-buck job.

Most importantly, I have been trying to lose weight. After watching the Biggest Loser back in summer and all the negative comments by family and friends especially about my graduation hiccups. So now I am a lighter person. A sneak preview for everyone before I reveal myself in CNY 2012. 9kg more to lose. Please pray for my discipline so that I can stick well to my diet + exercise routine.

Selamat Hari Merdeka

2011-08-31T19:13:00.002+01:00

Happy National Day Malaysia! I LOVE YOU! And I am still proud to be a Malaysian!

Despite all the ill treatments by the Barisan Nasional Government, I would like to thank them. If it wasn't the double standard set by the government on our education system, I wouldn't have studied hard to get good grades. If it wasn't the injustice done on me, I wouldn't be here in UK practicing my pre-registration. Allow me to justify what I meant by injustice done on me. Firstly, I was eluded from the JPA sholarship despite being excellent in both studies and sports. Secondly, I was not given a place in public university despite my grades and extra-curricular points are better compared to some of my friends of different racial background. Thirdly, my application for PTPTN loan was rejected because the alignment of the application form that I printed is not accurate despite being endorsed by a prominent Datuk.

Hence, my wage-earner parents have to spend more than half their life-saving to support me on my pursuit of better quality education. I have lesser pocket money than most of my friends. But the perseverance through 4 years of uni life, I have finally made it throught the clouds. Now I am earning. Soon I will be earning 3 times of what the government will be paying me if I have studied locally in a public university. So maybe I should express my gratitude to Barisan Nasional for making my life hard to give me a fruitful life later on.

But I still love Malaysia. Its my home. I will definitely come back. Be it for Nasi Lemak, Char Koey Teow or Indian Banana Leaf Rice. I am a Malaysian. And Happy Independence Day.

Life as a Malaysian pre-registration pharmacist in United Kingdom

2011-08-27T09:30:00.004+01:00

Got my first payslip and saw my bank account flourished by someone who is not my dad since quite a while ago. I have 3 days off ahead of me (weekends + bank holidays). Hari Raya is around the corner. Merdeka Day is around the corner too. The homesick feelings suddenly sunken in deep at the back of my heart. Emo-ness roamed around me for the past few days with a few victims of my unsuspected temper. Insomnia hitted me badly too.

Although got paid but about 2/3 gone to rental, council tax, bills, transportation, lunch and badminton. Couldn't go for a getaway worried that might not have enough money to sustain till the next pay. I am officially a working adult now. The pride of a sustainable adult hinders me from acting impulsively and being ended up like a parasite who ask money from home even after working. Thats why I am at home. But loneliness seems to be my loyal friend. 924 friends on facebook just makes me a bigger loser for not having a friend around compared to if I have just 94 friends. Probably people who has only 94 friends on facebook has more close friends and families or even loved ones than me and that is why they don't need to spend so much time on facebook adding people.

After watching the Digi's "Dear Malaysians" advertisement, I would like to say a few words. I am sorry for being emo at times. I am sorry for being a nuisance when I emo. I am sorry I have said too many hurtful words. I am even more sorry to have done many hurtful things too. I am sorry for not being a understanding character. To my dear families and friends, thank you for not leaving me. To those who has forgotten me, I hope our path will meet in a better intersection. I am sorry for my past. I would like to be given a second chance or maybe the third in the future. I vowed to change for better.

I would not like to spend any holidays alone anymore.

If I have offended any of you before and you have forgiven me and would like to be friends with me again. Just drop a message on my facebook or msn. I promised to make things better for us. Nevertheless, if I can be nice to my customers then I should be nicer to someone who meant better for me.

BIG FIGHT!!!

2011-08-16T22:54:00.005+01:00

Taxi Driver: F***ing hell.. What are u doing over here? I have been waiting u at the other side for 10 minutes.
Me: I told the call centre I'm gonna be here. That's where I wait every Tuesday. (niamah !! i waited out here also 10minutes fucking cold.. U ccb bising apa??)
Taxi Driver: Look at my GPS. Its says there not here. Fuck!! I gotta job to do mate..
Me: I told him I'm gonna be here. I play badminton not hockey..
Taxi Driver: Oh fuck him!! I've got a job to do.. (Keep cursing)
Me: U wanna fight izzit? If I don't call u got no fucking job to do!!! Asshole!!
Taxi Driver: Fuck face u better watch ur mouth!
Me: Dick face u better keep driving or else I'm gonna cum on ur head!

He stopped and we started fighting on the road side. 3minutes later police were here to arrest him. And now I'm happily blogging about this shit face taxi driver with my eye bruised.

(The above conversation was only half true. He did cursed and the first few lines of the conversation were true. Only that we did not fight because he is fucking big like Steve Austin and lotsa tattoos.)

Maybe I should get a tattoo too..

What would I have done differently?

2011-08-14T21:48:00.002+01:00

Emoness suddenly consumed me. Started to listen emo songs and then looking back at old photos. And then my mind started to think of many things that I could have done differently if I can turn the clock back or time travel.

Firstly, I would like to be nicer to my sister. Looking at how much we fought during childhood and still turn up being good buddy now make me wish to have a nicer beginning with her. Maybe we could be best buddy.

Secondly, I will wanna spend more time with my dearest cousins. With the same reasons, although we only meet twice or lesser a year but still have such strong connections. I wished to have more family members with me.

Thirdly, I wished I remember at least one of my kindergarten friends. I have no contact at all because I don't remember any at all. I'm so sorry for being such a kid.

4thly, I wished to study in Chinese school. Being fluent in english is definitely a plus point. But being a Chinese who can't read chinese is definitely a big letdown for myself. I just wished I could sing as much Chinese songs like some of my Chinese friends. All I could do now is just memorise pin yin. Ouch!!

5thly, I wished I train harder in badminton. Looking at how some of my friend became international star just made me realised how stupid I am to be lazy and gave up badminton so easily.

6thly, I wished I didn't let go of badminton and allow myself to slump into a fat monster. Needless to say more. I can't even play a complete match of singles now. Sigh.

I think having these six corrected will be more than enough for me. Couldn't be so unsatisfied with life. Sometimes must let life goes wrong to make it perfect. Many things went wrong only to make it right for me. For example, being sent to Uni Nottingham unwillingly has given me one of the best memories in life. Besides that, one would questioned me why I never mentioned about being a better child. Thats because I wanted to be who I am as how my parents brought me up. They love me and I love who I am because of them.

Missed my youth. About 11 years ago.

New Chapter of Life

2011-08-14T00:58:00.002+01:00

Graduated on the 14th of July 2011. One of the proudest moments in life where I finally completed the norm of tertiary education. At least I have a degree and will be expected to get a good job in future. Indeed I already have a job waiting for me before I graduated. Family was here to witness my graduation and it was definitely one of the happiest times together as family. Thinking back, I kinda regret for not staying at home more often last time.

Moved to Hull and found myself a nice apartment to live in. At least I won't need to be depressed when at home after a long tiring day at work. Started my pre-registration training on the 1st Aug. Everyone there are nice and friendly to me. Have a feeling that I'm gonna live here for a long time. Found myself a small local badminton club. Good enough to keep myself in touch in badminton. Besides that, has paid a year of gym membership. Hopefully I'll be disciplined enough to go frequently.

Recently, broke up with my girlfriend of more than 1 year. Don't worry. I am fine. And don't worry. She is fine too. Probably better than me because she has much stronger character than I am. Path changes as we grow up. So we head off to fulfill our own destiny. Wishing her all the best. For myself, I just would like to work hard and get my payslip on time everymonth. :)

Updates

2011-08-11T18:01:00.002+01:00

The memories of going home for 1st time after living in a foreign land is probably one of the strongest feeling that I could ever have. Remembered how excited I was and every seconds seems too long. The second when the airplane touched down at KLIA, I immediately sighed in relief and loosened my seatbelt. Took my hand carry and tried rushing out of the plane as fast as I could. I was so quick that I was the 1st person to arrive at the conveyer to collect my luggage and has to wait for another 20mins for the 1st luggage to came out. The journey home from KLIA took me another 3 hours. My patience was running thin and almost wanted to wrestle the driver to take over the wheels.

6 weeks in Malaysia was spent without waste. Spend most of the weekends at home to be with family while weekends away on my food hunt. I covered from Changlun till Semenyih. My food lists consisted of Laksa, Char Koey Teow, Cendol Ice, Seafood, Hor Fun, Wan Tan Mee, Dried Curry Noodle, Lok Lok, White Coffee, Rojak, Big Tree Fried Fish Paste, Soya Bean, Mua Chee, Chee Cheong Fun, Beef Noodle, Ginger Soup Noodle, Spicy Soup, Bak Kut Teh, JAPANESE foods, durians and World No.1 Mum's cooking.

Some of the memories that reminded me of home will be definitely the crazy traffic and KTM. Nothing makes u more Malaysian than our proud KTM (Keretapi Tiada Masa or Kena Tolak Masuk).

I love Malaysia and I hope Malaysia will love me when I go home next time :)

Updates

2011-08-10T23:13:00.002+01:00

Sorry for not having any post for the past months. Been busy with my summer holiday back in Malaysia till with my graduation recently in July. Then moved to Hull and now I am officially the pre-reg pharmacist of Beverley. Just celebrated my 1st birthday in Hull. Still in good piece. Shall update more soon. Don't give up on me.

The Moment I Cherished

2011-05-14T01:47:00.002+01:00

It was as though the day I enrolled into Notts MPharm was like yesterday. I remembered very clearly that I was alone on the first day. Was the only one from SIT college to study in Notts Msia campus. No friends and alone in a campus that seems to be far from civilisation. Remembered clearly my uncle rode his motorcycle to uni to pay for my tuition fees because I don't want to carry that many of cash. I first made friends with Ji Hang during orientation. Went on with Phillip, Wai Xin and Qi Hua on the very first day of lecture. But during this 4 years, there is a girl who gave me the deepest impression. She is none the less Ni Ni. Met her during registration day and saw her hopping around excitedly. Went through up and down this 4 years. And my last day as MPharm student was spent having lunch with her. Besides that, my buddies including Gary, Kevin, Hao Yan, Hau Wee and Tick Siang will never be forgotten. Those crazy nights that we had will always be a legend among ourselves.

Last night, I nearly cried when I finished my last sentence of my dissertation. It was like a moment when someone who is finally being released from prison. 4 years of uni life was definitely never easy especially doing a pharmacy degree. I was too excited that I immediately packed my luggage until 4am. Can't wait to get home after 2 years in foreign land.

I am still awake now at 2am (exactly 12hours from my flight). Was overwhelmed by what happened tonight. My badminton teammates had a farewell for me after the Notts BA Presentation night. Our team won the Division 2B Men's doubles and mixed doubles. All those memories of us playing together as a team with unbeaten runs just made it a sweeter one. Never did I felt so closed to my badminton mates before. I wished I could stay another year just to be with them. But only way to do so is doing Phd which will be absolutely impossible for me.

Awwww.. I just can't wait to get home. The next post should be an entry from Malaysia. Cheers and salam :)

Pharmacy Annual Ball 26.03.2011

2011-03-28T00:58:00.003+01:00

The Pharmacy Ball marked the end of my chapter of being a university student. A week before Easter holidays come and about 7 weeks to the due date to submit my dissertation. Then, I will have to wait until July for my graduation. It seems that 4 years just glimpsed through my eyes with just a few blinks, although most of the time in between I felt miserable with the workload. As much as I am happy to step into working life soon, I felt sad that I have to separate from mates that have gone through ups and downs in this 4 years. Hence, this post will be a very memorable one to have capture the closest friends throughout this 4 years. Nevertheless, I will never forget how much they have helped me and all the joy they brought to me.

All England Badminton 2011

2011-03-14T23:57:00.002Z

It was one of the most exciting finals I have ever watched. Our Malaysian doubles nearly clinched the title but it was the national hero Lee Chong Wei who brought glory back to our nation by beating his No.1 nemesis Lin Dan in the Men's Singles final. However, I was happy to see the true 1Malaysia spirit in a foreign land 10000miles away from home. All Malaysian supporters in National Indoor Arena, Birmingham gave their 100% support to Lee Chong Wei, Koo Kien Kiat and Tan Boon Heong disregard of our racial identities. So why can't Malaysians in Malaysia abolish our racial disregularities and start appreciating our cultural similarities? If we live in peace and harmony, I believe that Malaysia will then be truely Asia. Anyway, lets focus back on several highlights during the All England Championship.

This year I didn't win the fastest smash challenge due to several reasons such as lack of training and poor organisers. Anyway, I still did my a 111mph using a steel racquet with a T-joint in ultra low tension strings. The fastest smash was 115mph while Nathan Robertson only did a 101mph. Although I can surpass 115mph easily if I wanted to try again but the long queue and inexperienced organisers just put me off. Besides that, I didn't buy anything because I felt the shirt was ugly and other things are over-priced as usual.

However, I managed to meet Lin Dan twice and took picture with him. I also managed to take picture with Wang Shi Xian while on my way to grad a sandwich after her victory. I met Xu Chen and Ma Jin the night before finals in the restaurant I had dinner. I saw Xia Xuan Ze and Li Yongbo on the street as well. And most importantly, I saw Taufik Hidayat walked past in front of me but I am too lazy to chase him for a picture.

The best part of this whole weekend -------> I was on TV and millions of people could have seen my face as one of the highly enthusiastic LCW supporter. :)

Transformation

2011-03-06T23:28:00.003Z

Just watched the new episode of House and he inspired me to start making some new changes in my way of life. Last time I used to have live by one of the rules, which is 'with great power, comes with great responsibility'. And I started to care too much of people around me until I am depressed with the fact that I don't have the power and knowledge to help everyone. Dr. House used to think that he can saves everyone life. In this new episode, his patient died and he blamed himself turning into a crappy doctor after being in a relationship. I thought he is going to get depressed and started to go insane like the past season. Anyway, he totally twisted the plot of the series when he chose to love Dr Cuddy and happiness instead of getting depressed trying to save all his patients.

Right now, I am tired of trying to help everyone and being the Mr Nice Guy. I will still be nice and helpful but with limit which means I will not let you make me unhappy after helping you out. Sorry and you just have to wipe your own bottom. I have devoted most of time caring people and now I want to start having fun and be a little selfish. If anyone dislike the new me, then its fine. Good luck to you :)

A PharmNotts Nite

2011-02-20T21:45:00.004Z

It was a dinner to gather all Malaysian Pharmacy students in our class to celebrate CNY. Although it was not the CNY period anymore, that's the best we could do because everyone were busy with their lab schedule. A crazy and hectic semester indeed. :)

Just to show off my muscled body.

A very very very HAPPY Chinese New Year part II

2011-02-05T18:30:00.006Z

After reaching the climax of passing my exams, there are more good news to come. Won a medal in Joint Asian Games today. But it has been given to her as a CNY gift. :) And then my new pair of badminton shoes came. After the 1st pair served me for about a year, I decided to buy its subsequent generation. And it came today. So happy !!

Old pair
New pair!!

A very very very HAPPY Chinese New Year

2011-02-04T10:39:00.004Z

The Rabbit Year has brought me luck even before it started. On the New Year eve, despite with an injured elbow I managed to win points for my team and we nailed our opponent 6-2. And it has lifted us to the top of the table for the league we are playing in and stand a great chance to get a promotion.

As for reunion dinner, it was a happy dinner as we had a really BIG fish, usually that can only be found in big restaurants in Msia. The other dishes includes prawn, empress chicken, roasted duck, lamb, vege, taufu and a soup. It comes with a very prosperous price of 18pounds per person. Then, we headed to Hao Yan's place to start our mini casino sessions. And for as long as I can remember, this is the first time I actually earned some winnings during CNY. Not much as it is only 10pounds. But I am very happy with it.

Didn't do much on the New Year day and stayed at home because worried about exam results. But still luck found its way to me. My neighbour's landlord brought some homemade puffs to me. How awesome to have your neighbour's landlord to bring u CNY gifts? Happy happy.. Then it was my neighbour's turn to offer me bubur chacha.. Thanks Kai Yee. CNY has never been greater in this foreign land.

Moment of truth. How many of us would like to receive our result on the 2nd day of CNY? Especially it is your final exam of your final year. Couldn't sleep well the night before. Was shaking while on my way to School of Pharmacy. The wind was so distressing with at least 30mph. I braved my way to take my results after I prayed. And all is well. All is well. God is so amazing. Thanks God I passed all my papers. And now I can start celebrating my CNY. Then I called home and actually sensed that my dad is proud of me again after disappointing him for so many years. Me too.

1) Look for air ticket to fly home.
2) Do anything I want.

Almost cried

2011-01-30T06:19:00.002Z

It has been a very LONG time since I last felt so pressured until I wanna leave that place immediately. After leaving Malaysia to UK soil, I have been doing great and happy with the things that I am doing and did. Today is the first day I am being stressed until I almost lost my temper and wanted to rage in public. I am innocent and why am I being put in the middle of others problem. I even paid a huge sum of money just to watch people cried and complained about their life. Perhaps I am older and more mature now. I knew complaining will not solve the problem. But then can't they just grow up and start to solve the problem instead. I just wanna say that I AM INNOCENT !! Stop involving me in your triangle or octagonal problems. I am tired. I am being stretched to the verge of breaking. Do NOT release the HULK in me!!

118 (Yat Yat Fatt)

2011-01-18T21:08:00.004Z

18th January was indeed a good day for me. Finished my last paper of my last exam as a student in my life. I am 150% sure that I won't further my studies even if I am given a chance or a million pounds. Because I hated exam. Although I may still need to sit for my pre-reg exams or a few more in my life as a pharmacist but then my story as a student has finally come to last chapter. I just need to endure another 3months to complete my FYP and then I am good to graduate. After all, today's paper was the easiest among all that I had in a week span (according to myself and may not be agreed by others). Based on the amount of effort I have put into this module, I am more than being satisfied with the amount of questions that I have answered and hopefully they were right.

After having minor celebration in city centre with my lovely gf, I have got a wall post on FB from my neighbour saying that I have a parcel in their home. It was in fact the LOVE from Singapore. My cousin has sent me several things which just made today even lovelier. Thanks Kai Wen.

From:
To:
(Chinese Herb Soup)

(Cooking spices)

(All the way from USA)

(My first Timberland shirt)

14th July 2011

2011-01-14T01:06:00.002Z

On the lunar calendar, 14th of July is not an auspicious day as it the Chinese community celebrate the Hungry Ghost Festival. However, I am now most looking forward to the day 14th of July 2011. Because it will be my graduation day. Which means I will no longer need to attend lectures and have more money going into my bank account monthly.

However, I need to set my sight to the exam I am having at the moment. I don't want to get too excited and end up counting chickens before eggs hatch. I am so motivated right now. I need to pass my January exam. Then I am good to go home for summer holiday and able to graduate with all my friends on 14th of July. I am going to make my parents proud. I will!!

Wish me luck

2011-01-09T20:35:00.005Z

About 36 hours into the first paper of my last examination as a uni student. Don't get me wrong because I am not about to graduate yet. I still have to do another semester of lab project after this exam. Nevertheless, I don't have to sit for exams anymore in 2011. However, the road for me to become a registered pharmacist is still quite far. Because after graduating from my MPharm degree, I still have to sit for my pre-reg exams before getting registered.

Anyway, I am not thinking too much about the future yet. I have to settle what is placed in front of me right now. In the beginning of the semester, we were told that a higher standard of answers will be expected from us because now we are at Masters level. Just hope I can do it anyway. Four papers in a span of a week. Not too much but still not that easy.

11/1/2011 - Immunopharmacology and Treatment of Chronic Diseases
13/1/2011- Microbial Disease and Pathogenicity
17/1/2011- Biomolecular Therapeutics
18/1/2011- Preparation of Practice

Out of this 4 papers, I feared most on Preparation of Practice. Its something that you can't copy and paste from textbook or notes. Its more like a test on your clinical knowledge and judgement on patient scenarios. Worst of all, I need to answer them based on Pharmacy Law, Criminal Law, Civil Law and Code of Ethics.

After all, wish me best of luck. I need to pass all these papers so that I can go home during summer. I NEED TO GO HOME DURING SUMMER!!

101.1.1.2011

2011-01-01T21:34:00.003Z

Happy New Year 2011 !!!

This is the 101th post of my blog and I decided to do it on this auspicious date.

Many people will have new resolutions when starting a new year but I am mature enough to understand that I am not that type of person who will accomplish or remember my New Year resolutions. Reduce weight, study hard or save money all this doesn't work at all. Unless its about eating more, not studying and spending more money then I don't need resolution at all becoz I am doing it daily. :P

Actually, I think I am accepting 2011 in a positive note.

1) I have a gf to begin 2011 with me.
2) I have friends around to celebrate it with me as well.
3) Family members are waiting me to go home soon.
4) I have a new racket on New Year eve.
5) I will be graduating this year.
6) I have a job awaiting for me in July.
7) I will be richer once I have a job.
8) I am going to meet my old friends when I go back Malaysia.
9) I will be eating non-stop once I go back Malaysia.
10) I am very sure that God will have a lot nicer plans for me ahead.

1st picture in 2011 with this old gf.

My new gf. Sexy and younger. <3

The last day of 2010

2010-12-31T12:55:00.002Z

It has been a generously well year for myself and I would like to summarize all the good things that happened on myself this year.

1) I passed Year 3 and managed to move on to Year 4 of MPharm.
2)Found myself a fantastic gf. Naughty but still love me a lot.
3)Found a new group of friends from HK through badminton. Fun and loving.
4)My uni badminton team has been very united and we have been performing very well on and off the court. Clapsss..
5)Had my 1st holiday in Europe (Budapest). Thanks to my generous parents.
6)Managed to secure a pre-reg offer from Boots in 2011.
7)Bought myself a Li Ning racket. Love it a lot.
8)Won the Z-Slash in All England for the fastest smash. Muscles!!
9)Received many many birthday presents from my gf. Muax..
10) Been well and strong throughout the year safely. Thanks Lord.. :)

Going Home...

2010-12-29T01:16:00.004Z

Recently chatted with my family on MSN and I found out that they have been secretly doing something bad behind me. They wanted to keep it a secret so that I will walk into the wrong house when I get back to Malaysia. Somehow I am much of a detective myself.

So motivated to study for my exam now. My guaranteed pass to go home is to pass my exam and avoid resits. And I would like to thanks Francis Yeoh for his motivating talk. God will bless me go home.

Previews of my new nest:

A short trip to Leicester

2010-12-18T23:35:00.004Z

It was a well-planned trip only to be followed by a series of unfortunate events. Managed to get cheap train tickets for just 5.75 pounds for a return between Nottingham to Leicester. Both of us have been craving for that little Japanese restaurant which serves nice but CHEAP sushi-es. The day started poorly with cold weather again at -4C and she woke up feeling nausea. Then, I realised my railcard is missing and turned my room upside down but only to fail. I guessed I am just getting older (thats what she said). Missed our train by 2mins and got onto the next train with a menopaused male conductor. Usually, they are nice and willing to "close one eyes" when things like mine happened because I showed him my railcard receipt. Instead, he decided to charge me for a new ticket 9.70 pounds for a single trip. Less than a minute later, heard him shouted/argued with a pretty girl in his early 20s and then he threw her off the train at next station. Pitied her and myself to have met this menopaused idiot.

Somehow managed to arrive at Leicester in one piece and bought my return ticket for just 8.60 pounds *grinned*. Hurried to the Japanese restaurant as it was getting colder. Both of us were shaking from inside out. Once we settled on our seats in the restaurant, the smart waitor served us with hot green tea (our heart felt so warm and touched). Began our sushi feast and nom nom nom.
This nice Japanese restaurant is named Yen Sushi. Situated beside Subway on your way to Leicester Market from the train station. Recommended by myself with 4/5 stars for quality and value for money.
Started with this cute little salmon roll to fill our hungry stomach at 1pm.
Spicy Salmon Roll for just 1.90 pounds.
Ikura ( I think thats what it is called). Anyway, the roe is fresh and juicy.
Scallop Sashimi - Really AwesOMeeE!!
The finale- Salmon Sashimi for just 3pounds a plate. Its fat and juicy.. Nearly ordered the whole big salmon in the chef's fridge.
Proof - Its as thick as my finger and my fist is not much smaller than Chuck Norris :)
With this many plates and a 10% student discount - it only costs me 37pounds. I wanted to kidnap the chef back to Nottingham to serve me with sushi everyday.

After a great lunch, we decided to call off our shopping trip at Highcross (the new shopping mall in Leicester) due to cold weather as heavy snow was coming. Went to Leicester Market to buy some cheap and fresh veges before going home. Happy day.

Snowman 2010

2010-12-03T01:11:00.003Z

Snow reported duty early this year. It came almost at the end of November. After snowing heavily (compared to last year) for few days, I finally decided to do what I do best - PLAY !!

After working + playing for several hours outside in the subzero temperature, I managed to build a snowman as tall as a normal Asian girl. But he is a MAN. SnowMAN. A lot larger than last year one because I have more snows to build with. Hopefully, no naughty kids will come to vandalise it. If the snows continue to come, maybe I will build a snow castle or a partner for my snowman. :)

So big and nice !!

Due to suggestion by my naughty gf, Mr Snowman has two hairy arms and nicer smile.

432 Days Away From Malaysia

2010-11-21T23:23:00.002Z

Despite countless efforts by Malaysian politicians to turn Malaysia into a circus, I am here to say that I still miss my grassroot. Inspired by Namewee (a controversial Malaysian singer who prefers to sing the truth about his country), "I will only exist when there is a home; and there will only be home when we have a country". Being away from home for 492 days is definitely not a very long period but it is just enough to make a courageous man to have homesick. I have missed a Christmas, a New Year, a Chinese New Year, a Mid-Autumn Festival, two Hari Rayas and two Deepavalis.

Christmas is coming again with my Christmas break starting on 11th December. Suddenly recalled how terrible it was to be in UK during Christmas holidays. Just wished to fly home but MAS and Airasia are not doing a good job to keep it affordable for Malaysians to go home during Christmas. Tony Fernandes should put more focus on his business (Now everyone can fly) instead of focusing of getting a bearded man to shave his legs to be steward on his plane.

Actually this post has no specific purposes. Just that I am piled with massive workload and stressed to the roof. So am here to grunt to relieve some of my emoness. :P

A True Fans of Dato Lee Chong Wei

2010-11-09T14:12:00.000Z

The glorious Nottingham Malaysian Games (NMG) 2010 has just concluded and a 'HATE' group has already been created on facebook to smear Nottingham Malaysian Society (NMS) good reputation.In the group, a young boy who claimed to be associated with Dato Lee Chong Wei (a true Malaysian hero who made the whole nation proud) has written a disturbing and corrupted post. Myself, the true victim, who is named as the loud-mouthed fat randomer and the Nottingham version of Nani, is here to report the truth that all Malaysian students deserve. I would like to declare that this will be my ONLY post and it is subjected to individual's own perspective of perceiving this matter.

This fat randomer mentioned in that post, was the runner-up of previous edition of NMG (not mentioned in that post). Unknown to many Malaysians who were present in the badminton hall that day, he was an ex-state player of Perak who had trained along side of Koo Kien Kiat (World No.1 Doubles) during their junior years. He has won several junior titles in Perak and has participated in countless National Junior Circuit and National Inter-School Competition since the age of 12. However, he was sidelined from badminton due to severe injuries to his knees and has not been playing badminton competitively ever since. Retired from badminton for almost 6 years without proper training has made him gained a lot of weight. And that is how he got nicked as the fat randomer who was last year NMG runner-up of mens singles (reminder: he beat the champion in the first game before succumbed to muscle cramp - not an excuse). He accepted the defeat graciously and did not even try to promote himself. Unlike to some young boy who tried to inform the whole world that he has many collections of LCW shirts. Sadly, he was just a bronze medallist of previous NMG.

The NMG 2010 has not been enjoyable to 'Nani'. It would be agreed by all volunteers in the badminton department that 'Nani' has been helpful on that day. He wasn't part of the badminton committees or volunteers. But he sincerely helped them to in announcement (I believed that is how he got nicked as loud mouth), umpiring, official matters and cleaning the floor. There were a few mistakes that made by the young boy's post.

Case Study No.1: The changes in mens singles draw were not made to the advantage of Nottingham. It was an honest mistake made by the committees to draw them playing in early rounds. The amendment to the draw was solely requested from the player from Surrey (previous year winner). So, this is the No.1 fact manipulated by the fancy LCW impersonator.
Case Study No.2: Someone claimed that he deserves the mens doubles gold medal. Just stop counting chicken from eggs before they are hatched. The doubles match between Nani and LCW impersonator was scheduled at 1.45pm. JJ arrived at 2.15pm and not 2.05pm as claimed. Nani doesn't mind buying the two little kids Power Ranger watches. I believed that for someone who wore Malaysia and LCW shirt, he must have knowledge of International Badminton competition rules. For any players who failed to turn up within 5 minutes, a walkover shall be conceded. Nani waited for 30 minutes. I don't care if the bus broke down or Lady Gaga turned up in Nottingham, it was a player's ULTIMATE responsibility to ensure that he is on the court ON TIME! Stop blaming the bus or anyone else if you failed to turn up. If your partner can turn up on time so why can't you?
Case Study No.3: Nani was approahed by two weirdos from Cardiff (either the president or some officials). They challenged him in a dismayed manner. The conversation was somehow like this "Actually, are you prepared to play against our players? If you are, then you should get into the court to play them. They came so far and they deserved to play. Being disqualified is unfair to them." My reasoning was simple "I am prepared to play against them but I am not willing to. I am a badminton player so I have to think for myself first. I am playing both singles and doubles. With tight schedule in NMG, I wouldn't have enough resting time. What if I don't have enough rest and it affects me to lose my subsequent match, will that be unfair to me?" Both of them agreed with my situation but the LCW impersonator couldn't understand the same fact. Anyway, I have lost my mood to continue my NMG quest. Winning NMG does not mean a big fuss to me as compared to some little kids who never even played in higher level of badminton. I rather console my quartermaster who was frightened to tears because she was surrounded and threatened by some morons. Imagine a group of healthy men bullying a girl. Disgusted!
Case Study No.4: Donning LCW outfit and dived 9 times (WOW!) doesn't make you looked impressive or like LCW. LCW has never dived 9 times when playing. Diving 9 times shows that either you are lacked of stability or core strength or you are just pure attention seeker like what you did with your outfit. To make things clear, I am not jealous or even wished to have a LCW shirt. Because I believed, if you are to wear a legend's outfit, you have to be at least good in the game he played. Sorry, but you have just disgraced our national hero.

Case Study No.5: The winner from Cambridge has played against last year winner. Beating the last year winner has simply proved that he is of true quality and deserved the GOLD medal (wanted so much by the kindergarten kids). This Cambridge player came from Selangor and has many achievements too. (We do not like to promote ourselves unless needed.)

That was all I knew and I will not interfere with other claims, which I have no knowledge on. For every competitions, there will be a winner and losers. True winners do not boast about their victory while Good Losers learn from their defeat. I hope the young boy will learn from his lesson - BE PUNCTUAL and ACCEPT YOUR DEFEAT!

Despair

2010-11-04T13:52:00.002Z

With light tears and heavy heart, I closed each tab on my screen. AirAsia, MAS, Emirates, SIA, Thai Airways, Qatar Airways and etc. My hope of seeing a place called home sooner is dashed. Straight to the point ----> I missed home! I have not seen my family for 14months. I never felt this way for the past 14months. I thought I am strong enough to try not to miss home. But recent bout of insomnia made me awake for nights. I started to miss home. A place where I could hide. Maybe recently there has been too much pressures from studies and badminton. I just want to stay away and not to fight against it.

When I saw Gary's family came to visit him, it was the first time I saw family warmth in UK. Maybe that was the time I started to be vulnerable. Christmas break is coming with a month long holiday. Everyone started to plan for their vacations or going home. And I have to stay in Dunkirk without plans and friends. I called home and no one picked it up. I called my dad to wish him birthday. I thought on his birthday maybe he will miss me or be generous to allow me home. His ans: Why do you want to come home? You stupid and please spend more time to study. Don't think of coming back.

Hope severely dashed. Heart crushed. I just want to go home so much. Moral of the story: Its hard to be a good son. Good son want to go home but wasn't allowed. Bad son doesn't want to go home but were asked to go home.

Life of Anchovies together with Sainsbury Mixed Vegetables and Cili Padi

2010-10-31T23:31:00.003Z

If God of Fortune suddenly turns his back against you, DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY!! Life has certainly not ended yet because right now I am telling you the true story of how a POOR student live in UK, where everything is comparatively expensive. BLAME it on badminton, travelling, clubbing, girlfriend, shopping and MORE ONLINE SHOPPING or whatever reasons you could think of but thats not important anymore. You still have bills to pay for and remember that life must go on. So when old people tells you to save some woods for rainy days, please LISTEN to them.

Because I listened, therefore I am still able to have fried rice to meet my dietary needs. I have 20kgs of rice in store room and plenty of anchovies from my mother. So why not I make full use of them? Sainsbury's mixed vegetables is only for less than 2pounds per kg. Cili padi about 1pound per packet (which could last me 2 weeks). Tom Yam paste about 2.50. So tadaaaa!!! Carbo checked. Vege checked. Protein don't need to check. Calcium checked.

1) Indomie fried rice. NO!! There are no Indo mee in it.. Just use its seasoning to enrich the flavour of the fried rice.. Ingredient : Rice, Anchovies, Mixed Vegetables, Cili Padi, Soy sauce, and Indomie seasoning. Eggs - steal from Gary.

2) Spicy fried rice. Ingredient: Rice, Anchovies, Mixed Vegetables, Cili Padi and Pure Chilli Powder. Super spicy and awesome max.. Eggs- Borrowed from Vivian and she said no need to return. :)

3) Tom Yam fried rice. Ingredient: Rice, Anchovies, Mixed Vegetables, Cili Padi and Tom Yam paste. Definitely and proven to be better than Amazing Thai cafe. If interested, contact 07889142892. 4pounds per plate. Haha!! Eggs - Too bad it was a Sunday. No victims around.

Survival technique mentioned above is based on true life story.
p/s: You must have adequate cooking skills and PLEASE DO NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT HAVING THE SAME FOOD UNTIL YOU GOT MONEY!!

HK Notts Games 2010

2010-10-24T21:30:00.005+01:00

It ended with a hangover on me this morning. It was the Hong Kong Nottingham Games 2010 yesterday (sort of like our Malaysian Nottingham Games). I was supposed to be there as their strategist @ coach as I coached their girls but then ended up myself playing as well. Anyway, we got 3rd place. It was nice to see them in a big team unlike our Malaysian team. It was so ironic to find more HK badminton players than Malaysian badminton players in Nottingham. Sigh!! Wished we have a big and strong team like they did. Anyway, I made lotsa friends now because I joined them for dinner and K session afterwards with lotsa 'green teas'.

I was supposed to spectate. The guy next to me (Alan Man) who is the culprit who got me feet wet.

My mixed doubles partner (Yvonne).

The HK Notts Badminton team. Envious~~

Budapest

2010-10-22T23:50:00.002+01:00

I know that its my fault not to post any entry about my Budapest trip excep for the food. But recently I am very busy with my Badminton and Studies. So not much time to write long post about my Budapest trip. Anyway, it was very fun and cheap.
For more information please visit the following blog Photo Frame and Moments in my Life

A lost friend FOUND!!!

2010-10-20T23:53:00.002+01:00

I couldn't remembered how it ended as all I could only remembered she left without informing me. I thought the reason was because we had a BIG fight earlier. We went into the cold war phase where we will ignore each other presence in class. Everyone knew that we fought because usually we were the best of friends and always together wherever we go. And suddenly she disappeared into nowhere. Then I heard she went to XYZ college. I tried to sms and msn her or even Friendster her (sorry, FB haven't came to me yet that time). All to no avail. I gave up. I added her on FB few years ago and wished her birthday every year. No reply at all. I thought she must be still angry with me.

One cold night, suddenly I got a nudge from her on MSN. I thought it must spams again. To my surprise she msn-ed me. We chatted for quite an hour. According to her, she was too busy all these while. And she left because of another reason but wasn't in the mood to tell me. Well, I forgave her because nothing is more important to have her back as friend again. Many of those cherish moments came back to me again. I found one of my BFF again. Hehe. I will not tell who this person is because she knew too many of my secrets already. Most of them are very 'memalukan'. Hahahaha.

Budapest - The Food and the City

2010-10-14T23:01:00.011+01:00

After returning from Budapest, Hungarian foods has became my favourite after Japanese food. Foods were CHEAP NICE TASTY and MASSIVE!!! After spending Great Britain Pound for a year, Hungarian Forint is so so so nice to be used. Imagine 1 pound = 300 Forints !!! A steak there costs less than 2900 Forints with the quality better than TGIF.. I reckon I will be back to Budapest again and again and again till all my arteries are clogged by those LDLs. (Remaining of this post is in the form of photos)

WARNING!! Viewers with diabetic and heart conditions are advised not to continue to view this post.
Sausages from the Sausage Fair. There were many kind and I only took 1 because there were many other kind of foods as well.

The famous Hungarian Goulash soup. Tasted like Chinese ABC soup but with beef. Nice soup!

This is Lamb Ragoute - A lamb soup with spices. My favourite soup !!
Hungarian Chicken Soup - Tasted like slight Ginseng Chicken Soup without ginseng in this case.

Seafood soup - With lotsa seafood.

Four types of soup - [Top Left] Onion soup in bread (Very nice!) , [Top Right] Chicken Soup again!, [Bottom Left] Bean Soup, [Bottom Right] Deer Stew Soup (Awesome !!)

Sandwich with an egg!!

Can't remember what it was but I knew it taste nice too..

Beef Goulash with some mini mini pellets.. Nice too!!

Beef Medallion - Yummmy!!

Salmon fillet with Rice (Their rice beats all Chinese restaurants I went in UK)

Deer stew (Awesome dish)

Beef Steak ordered by Gary. (Top layer - half inch thick cheese) (Middle - steak) (Bottom layer - bread) And one of the nicest mash potatoes I have eaten.

Beef Goulash again if I am not mistaken.

One of the best lamb ever.. Without sauce and on its own.. Its so succulent and juicy with pure lamb aroma..

The tastiest dish all of us agreed on. THE PORK MEDALLION from Marshall..

And the WINNER is :-

Super Large Mixed Grills. The Chicken Chop even has cheese in it.. OMG!!!!

4 hours of Badminton Marathon

2010-10-05T08:26:00.002+01:00

World class runners took less than 3 hours to complete a marathon run. Average runners usually take about 4 hours to complete one. There I just completed a badminton marathon last night. The moment I dropped my racket onto my bag, I was completely strengthless and was lying there motionlesly. Anyway, still managed to cycle back home and did a few things before went to sleep. Even proteins supplement couldn't help me this time. Still woke up with sore muscles and weak legs. GG-fied. And the training continues tonight with Oriental party after that. I am AWEsOMeeeeee (high-pitched voice).

Li Ning Kit

2010-09-28T01:26:00.003+01:00

Ever since summer, I have gone crazy with Li Ning badminton stuffs. The reason was very simple. Yonex couldn't fulfill my craze for badminton anymore. The Armotech 900 technique is one of the best Yonex I have ever used. Then the Arcsaber Zlash is just a mere tool of Yonex propaganda. And Lin Dan was the reason I chose Li Ning racket. Because after I have had the Zlash, it caught me for a moment "Now I have the greatest Yonex racket already. So whats next?". And so Li Ning Flame N90 which was used by Lin Dan caught my attention as its currently used by the best player in the world. So why not I get myself one. But then I managed to try one of it which belongs to my friend an I didnt like it for it requires a lot of effort and stamina to sustain the power of the racket. I am no Lin Dan. Hence, I got myself the N50 as its much flexible and lighter. :)

Well, the racket comes with a racket bag which is huge. Make me look as if I am a professional player but I am not. Still love it anyway. Then my friends Jacky and Joyce bought me a pair of Li Ning shirt and shorts for my birthday. Love them so much. Hehehe..

Just got it today XOXO

Pre-MPharm4 shopping

2010-09-25T21:12:00.002+01:00

Being stranded at foreign land during summer holidays is a BAD BAD BAD idea. Its not healthy for mental health as well as financial health. Money I saved from working as MVP in Boots for 8 weeks is officially ALL GONE before September ends. Being bored at home with nothing much to do will only motivates me to find something to kill time. Online shopping is actually one of the best way to spend time on coz you wouldn't be tired from walking like actual shopping did. Now everything is only a few clicks and enter the debit card password and then pooofff all gone my money. A happy man with a bad ending soon.

After spending quite a lot of money from buying rackets in August/September and now I bought a few things as a pre-term preparation. Like a small kid getting new shoes and bag to go to school, I have got myself a few things as such. First was the Nike5 T-3-FS which I bought online. Its combination of pure white and fluroscent green is something which just suits my taste. Striking and most importantly it is freaking WHITE!! :P Awesomest..

Then I bought two beanies. One online and the other from JD sport. Why do I need so much? Ever since my NEW hairstyle I have a major problem whenever I cycle. HEAD FREEZE!! So beanies are to protect my head and those little hairs. Hehehe..

In Birmingham (the nearest sin city from nottingham), I bought a jacket and a pair of shoes in Bullring. Period. Not gonna elaborate more. I just did it.

Since its Mid-Autumn Festival and I have limited mooncakes at home so I decided to buy a box of Hong-Kong made mooncakes. Paid 15pounds for 4 pieces of double yolk white lotus paste mooncakes. My mother said I was crazy for paying so much. I just agreed to please her. But who is the one who put at least 20 mooncakes at home every year? My mother. :)

Freshers fayre was also held in this week. Took a lot of freebies. But most impressively I have got myself 3 Mango cards and loads of Domino's pizza voucher. Gonna survive on free pizza for weeks.

Finally, School of Pharmacy also decided to join the fun of pre-term preparation by giving us books. So now I have the latest edition of MEP and BNF Children. This semester have to study Preparation of Practice. I LOVE PAUL. Please be nice to us.

A day full of EXCITEMENTs

2010-09-12T01:17:00.005+01:00

I was supposed to collect my hair trimmer from Boots in the city centre today and return home. I will come to the part of what I did with the trimmer later. However, began the day by going out with friends to have dim sum lunch. After filling my stomach with dim sums and then I went to Boots to collect my hair trimmer. And then I began to wander around in the store to see what I could buy.

Ended up, I paid 46GBP to smell like Chanel. It wasn't on purpose but then its mostly my fault. I was supposed to buy Biotherm moisturiser, which was recommended by my trusted friend. So there I went to Biotherm counter to enquire about its brand moisturiser. But then the girl told me that she is a Chanel staff and asked me to go to her Chanel counter instead. Being shy and too gentleman I didn't say NO and instead followed her to her Chanel counter which is just behind the Biotherm counter. But why on earth a Chanel girl is standing at the Biotherm counter and the Biotherm girl is no where to be seen. Anyway, the Chanel girl was so polite and offered such a good customer service to promote her product. Being a usual me, curiosity and pride took over my consciousness and agreed to buy its moisturiser. Reason No.1 its Chanel (SUPER BRANDED!). Reason No.2 I never had any Chanel before and its very likely to be the cheapest Chanel I ever bought. So I think its a good buy.

Then back home, I tested with my new hair trimmer to trim my sideburns.. Anyway, it ended badly and I would say the hair trimmer suckz max.. Picture will tell u how I ended to how I look now because of the sucky hair trimmer. Regretz..

10 Years Before & After

2010-09-11T10:16:00.002+01:00

I missed my body of 10 good years ago. Much lighter, slimmer, fitter, flexible and of course better recovery rate. I was able to endure 9 sessions of SERIOUS badminton training weekly and yet feels fresh and pain-free the next morning. Probably half-dead with super sore thighs and arms after training but never worried about next day. Able to keep going and going with no rest throughout the year unless for sick or festive reason.

10 years later which means NOW, I suddenly felt like I have aged too much. Apart from being heavier and BiGGER, I wasn't able to perform many of my acrobatic acts on the badminton court. Looked rather sluggish on the court and definitely less than 50% of my previous fitness level. Played and not trained for 4days consecutively made me rather handicapped now. Pains on my arms, shoulders, back and thighs or almost every possible inch of muscles. Felt really old. Sigh. Just wished I never gave up badminton so easily. Should have continue my badminton life instead retiring from it last time and never do anything about my physical changes. But I am determined now. I want a change. A change that could at least bring a few sparks of glory that I used to enjoy last time. Bringing cheers back into my game will definitely remind me of my cherish moments in badminton. Putting my hands together and prayed that my body be blessed with youth again. :)

2 New mEmbers to the House of Awesome Rackets

2010-09-01T01:18:00.003+01:00

$$$ were spent faster than I could earn. Within a few minutes of phone call and a few clicks on the mouse, I have bought GBP 200 of badminton equipments. The money was well spent I would say becoz at least I got what I wanted and it came exactly like I wanted.

From previous blog, I have mentioned that I have targetted two new rackets. :) and my wish came true. The Li Ning N50 Flame is even more beautiful than it was in pictures. It gave me the great feeling when I first hold it, just like a chinese warrior knew that a sword that is perfect match for himself (in the Hong Kong movie). With the help from a friend in Malaysia to buy it for me and another friend to bring it over to UK for me. Inclusive of strings and a grip, it only costs me 130pounds which came together with a free 9-rackets Li Ning bag. What a great offer compared to the price that I have to pay for if I were to buy it in UK. All I need to do now is to wait for my bag to arrive in Oct.

The next was the Apacs Nano 900 Power, which I have also mentioned before that it is a clone to my Yonex Armotech 900 Technique. I would say its appearance is about 90% identical but the I have not tested its performance. I would say its feels more than just alright to me when I first hold it but not as awesome as the N50. Anyway, for its price of a mere GBP45 then I would say its a great BuY! If its good then perhaps in the future I will consider of buying Apacs rackets rather than paying more for Yonex to sponsor the players. :)

How do you know if you truely love a person.

2010-08-21T02:17:00.002+01:00

There are a few indicators when you fall in love with a person:
1) You always smile when you see her.
2) You always miss her when she is not around.
3) You will always wonder when you can see her again.
4) You will not want to let her go after each date.
and the list goes on....

Well I have gone through all that and found myself a girlfriend now. Our relationship is still very new but we have to do a bit of long distance relationship. Barely into two months of our love then we have to be separated as we have to do our summer placements in Hull and Northern Ireland respectively. We only met up twice after that before she went back to Malaysia. Been almost a month I last saw her and the waiting itself was painful. Anyway, the wait has finally comes to an end because she is on her flight now back to my arms. A couple of hours after I wake up later I am going to see her. The first thing I will do is hug her so tight that she is going to regret for leaving me the first place. :P

Anyway, I have planned to cook a nice dinner for her. I knew she missed my cooking. Going to sleep. To be continued.. (I'm to excited to sleep right now)

Badminton is bad for wealth

2010-08-19T01:53:00.006+01:00

One would argue that how expensive could playing Badminton be compared to Golf or Tennis or Archery or Snooker? The answer from me is that I don't know but what I knew is badminton is not cheap. Just let say in Malaysia a moderate racket costs you around RM 150-250. A dozen of moderate grade of shuttlecocks cost around RM40. Strings cost around RM20. A pair of badminton shoes about RM70. A grip for handle about RM6. So it costs you about RM400 just to get you ready for the game. Let say exclude training fees and jump straight into the court to hit with your peers then a standard rental of badminton court in KL cost you RM40 for 2hours. Let say you play once a week then it will cost you RM2080 just for badminton court a year. Play with 3 friends then it will be RM520 for yourselves per year. With all the figures around then it practically makes you think why don't I just swim or jog which is cheaper and burn more calories. But then badminton is not just about physical sport but then it also involves tactical games if you are good at it.

Those days I wouldn't appreciate the amount of money and efforts my dad put me through my training during childhood. The better I became the more he pays because I remembered I broke my string every week or so and a new pair of shoes averagely 2 months. No wonder he pressured me so much to train harder all the time. Now everything has changed. I am in UK and badminton is even much more expensive. Stringing costs me around 10pounds each time. Shuttles about 14pounds a dozen. Yet I still break my string once a week for goodness sake. Wished I couldn't hit as hard as I did. Paying for my strings regularly made me think about getting a stringing machine. I don't know whether thats a good idea. Because I don't think I have the time or interest to do it myself and I don't even have any extra space to put it. But then it will help me save a lot of money in long run.
(This beauty costs around 200pounds with a year warranty. Its still not the best in the market. Just for beginner.)

If I can't get the stringing machine then I might need to consider buying new rackets as I have broke one recently. I am bit in dilemma right now. Because I already have two great rackets (Yonex Armotech 900 technique and the Yonex Arcsaber Zlash), I am a bit into good rackets because they helped me to conserve my energy while I play. I don't train anymore and not as fit as last time. Thats the reason I need a better racket to help me conserve energy while playing at high level. But they are a bit pricey too.
(My pride and most expensive racket ever bought. Cost me about 140pounds but it worth every penny. Its flexible and give me an even more powerful smash.)

(My latest racket which I won in All England 2010. Road price around 170-190 pounds. I'm still getting use to it. Not a bad racket though.)

Anyway, I have targetted two new rackets. The first one is Li-Ning N50 which is currently used by the Chinese doubles ace Fu Hai Feng. Although its chinese-made and doesn't look glamorous but I have confidence in it. But the price tag is 160pounds and I am seeking help to get in from Hong Kong in a cheaper price. On the other hand, I came across with a clone racket from Apacs. Its the clone of my Armotech 900 technique which only cost 50pounds. Maybe it worth a try. Even if its not good then I can use it for training purposes.

(Yeng dao bao lo..)

(Clone racket.. Looks almost the same.)

Epic Questions

2010-08-17T02:55:00.001+01:00

In life somehow or rather what we will encounter many kind of questions thrown upon us. Some are smart questions from smart people while some are stupid questions from 'stupid' people. But sometimes 'stupid' people also ask smart questions. Smart people with smart questions are normally associated with tough academic questions which sounds like alien language to normal beings. Stupid questions from 'stupid' people generally need more detailed explanation in simpler terms but greater patience. However, I am not here to judge people whether they are smart or not.

Just that after I assumed the role as a senior to take care of my pharmacy junior welfare when they come to UK, I have been asked with lotsa questions. Sometimes, I will see questions pop out from my msn when I sign in. However, I am happy to answer all of them but some of the questions really tested my IQ and EQ. When my mood is good, I will choose to ignore or maybe answer them politely. But if they are unlucky then maybe will get a 'good' sounding from me.

Here comes the epic questions award from the very same person:-

(1) "Gideon, do you know the energy efficiency of the electric boiler/heater of that house XXX?" (I seriously don't know how to reply. I am a pharmacy student and I don't think that even Mech Eng student will check out on the energy efficiency of the heater.)

(2) "Do you know whether our school of pharmacy have microwave oven? Then we can reheat our food during lunch break." (I seriously almost *@$&$!%*^ because what the F*** you think this place is. Your house or your office pantry.. I ate cold sandwiches for a whole year and still alive. Sc*** you!)

"Kai-Ma"

2010-08-16T03:22:00.002+01:00

Kai Ma (means Godmother in Cantonese) is a nickname given to my secondary school teacher. It wasn't given by me. But she is refered as my kai-ma by other secondary school peers. Maybe because of the special treatments that I got from her during secondary school. However, she has not taught me any lesson throughout my entire secondary school. So you all must be wondering how that she could be my kai-ma without teaching me.

The story drags till the Year 2000 when I was 13 years old. Just few weeks into my Form 1 life, I met her in the school badminton hall. I told her that I want to represent the school for MSSPK Kinta 1. She looked at me with her eagle eyes and told me "Boy, give me a very good reason that why I should put you into the team while I have many Form 3 boys here which is physically stronger than you". I trembled when I saw her for the first time as she seems very fierce to me. And I replied, "Trust me and I shall prove it to you". (The conversation is not 100% accurate because it has been more than 10years ago but its something like that). I was given a chance and represented the school. I didn't get a medal but I was the semi-finalist in the boys' doubles U-15. She was very proud of me and said that she wanted to see me again next year.

Our bond grew stronger over the years. In 2001 I won two medals for her and the almost the same for subsequent years. I was the hero for ACS badminton club then. Free meals at KFC and Pizza Hut has been tradition (don't complain because Ipoh doesn't have Jogoya or Carls Jr). When I was in my sixth form, I automatically became the President and was given the veto power to choose my committee. I was allowed to manage the club anyway I wanted. She just trusted me so much. And remembered those days where we used to play together every thursday and laughed out loud in the court. Those were the days.

Maybe some people think thats not that deep. Well, she has done much more than that. She gave me free English classes during Form 5 and Form 6. I got Band 5 for my MUET which was not too bad. My english was bad back then but not so bad now (Thanks to her). And then when I was at my darkest moment (big argument with dad and relationship problem with my ex), she was there to comfort me and even gave me encouragement to move on.

Miss her so much. Definitely she is my best teacher and "kai-ma". Meeting her again on FB has made me missed her more and gave me a stronger reason to go back home earlier. :)

EMOOOOOO

2010-08-14T02:31:00.002+01:00

Suddenly I am infected with emoness since the last time which was about months ago. The emoness is so overwhelming that I felt the world doesn't need me to continue its spin. Felt worthless and unwanted. I know there are many more important things to be done but then I need attention as well. Korean dramas + mtvs and exams have always been top of the priority list. Where am I supposed to be?

And you. Really made my day from bad to worse. I was just being nice to ask about you. I thought this is my place. I asked you out because I was trying to be nice. I knew the loneliness feeling and tried to help you out. Instead of appreaciating my kind intention, you labelled me. Totally disappointed and so gonna ignore you. Don't ever complain being lonely in future coz you deserved it. Have you FML with DOTA.

Then I was being cheated of a friendship. I was there for you since I was 7. Numerous time I was there to help. It may not be the greatest deeds but it was of purest sincerity. I don't share secrets because I find secret kills. Sigh.

Sigh. Just need shoulder and hugs now. Sorry for suddenly turning into a cry baby. I will be alright when I wake up next morning.

Cheers.

My 24th Birthday

2010-08-11T02:14:00.002+01:00

I would like to thank Jeanette a lot for being there for me on my birthday. Thank you to Ni Ni too.. Both of you 'teman' me to have dinner at Bella Italia.. My 1st bday dinner in Notts. Then jeanette teman me go movie and drinking coz NiNi has to work tomorrow.. But luck not on my side coz almost all the clubs were closed and pubs were half dead. Really speechless. But somehow me n 'J' managed to find a pub with lots of blacks break-dancing in the pub. Had tequila and beers.. Then McD and went home by 2am.. Thats how my Bday went. Awesome? U answer it.

Birthday Eve in UK

2010-08-09T20:43:00.002+01:00

No birthday party or clubbing arranged so far. But I already been given a birthday dinner on last Saturday. None of my close friends are around or free to celebrate with me. My gf is 10000km back in Msia. But I am not emo-ing. Because I know I am 24 now. I'm glad that I am able to celebrate my 24th birthday in UK which many people couldn't. Not complaining to celebrate it alone because nothing is perfect. I have grown up. Peace.

Back to Notts

2010-08-06T10:10:00.004+01:00

The gruesome summer pharmacy placement has finally ended. Living alone and working in Hull was tough especially when I have no internet in Hull for almost a month. However, friends there have been great and supportive. Thank cute to whoever (you know who you are). A quick summary to describe my SPP - it was an invaluable experience where I got my 1st insight of a community pharmacy in UK. I learnt how things work and not here. Learnt when to speak and when not to. What to say and what not to say. And most importantly to give or not to give. The ang moh(s) behave very differently compared to Malaysians and I supposed because of cultural difference. They take painkillers like taking chocolate. Every week the same faces will come and buy a pack of 32 tablets of co-codamol. And I even started stereotyping them as the co-codamol face (dark & sunken eyes, poor skin complexion, something wrong with their teeth, slow in responses, trembling hands).

I would say Boots have done a great job in providing us summer placement with a very systematic and structured programme (except on the management). The day I left my store, I can feel that I am a different person who walked in 8 weeks ago. Now I am confident of my OTC skills and not afraid to challenge any dodgy customers. Been superfast in dispensing (thanks to FRED). Knew what to do when I comes back for my pre-reg. And most importantly, I happily lost weight with the Boots Meal Deal and my 30 minutes walk to work.

After turning into a wiser pharmacy student, I came home and found something that put a smile to my heart. (A new kitchen for me)

Days Without You (Part 5)

2010-07-04T17:05:00.002+01:00

Great news. I lost 3kg since I came to Hull. Proved that I have been stressed till I lost my body mass. Well I shall work harder since I am getting paid to lose weight as well. :) I couldn't remember anymore what happened this week at work as my brain now is filled by something else. happy memories -> -> -> We finally able to meet up after a month of separation. Although it was lesser than 24hours but the fondness we got was enough to bring us happiness beyond abc. Now she is in Buckingham while I am back to Hull. Anticipating to meet her again in another 2 weeks time. I shall wait patiently. :)

Days Without You (Part 4)

2010-06-26T08:05:00.002+01:00

Phew!! Managed to survive my 2nd week in Boots. Woke up everyday with sore legs. Reason was I walked at least 6000 thousand steps to and fro from work excluding those during working hours. Consistently sleeping before 11pm and woking up at 7am explains how tired I was working in Boots. Life as a pharmacist may not be hard and tiring but life as a pharmacy student in Boots is definitely not easy. The pharmacist has already sounded me to take care of the OTC and not to consult her unless necessary. So apart from those dispensary work during off-peak hours, I have to read a lot of materials to improve my OTC skills in order for me to 'jaga sendiri'. Not an easy life. At least they pay me good. Anyway, I only have to bear with it for a week more and then I can finally see the silly gal again. :)

Days Without You (Part 3)

2010-06-19T21:52:00.002+01:00

Finally endured my 1st week of placement with Boots. Wasn't as lucky and easy as I thought and was told. Piles of assignments to be done and tonnes of things and procedures to be learned at the shortest time as possible. On my 1st day, I have already been trained to operate the till under supervision of a dispenser trainee besides reading all the SOPs. And my tutor pharmacist shown me a bit of the prescription registering software. 2nd day was the Welcome Day. Wasn't that welcoming at all because its more like brainstorming session as we were asked things like "whats the definition of so and so of Boots policy and ways to improve them". Come on.. Give me a life.. 3rd day was more like it. Have to do some elearning and some of the 30mins tutor work. Managed to interact with the part-time pharmacist. My tutor only works on Monday and half day on Tuesday and Wednesday. How great.. Work more on the OTC counter and started to understand things better. 4th day was epic. The dispenser trainee was on MC. So I am alone at the OTC counter. Dispenser and Pharmacist too busy inside the dispensary. I have to deal with prescription coming in as well as the FRPS and also the OTC and the till. How great!! Beh tahan with no assist at all, I have to get my book to write down almost all the location of medication and stuffs related to health so that I don't need to go ask my dispenser as she was too busy. Finally today a Saturday. Both pharmacist don't work on Saturdays. Instead we have a locum pharmacist. My dispenser pushed me inside the dispensary to be with him. And she stood at the OTC. How smart. So I did my prescription and labelling and then got them ticked by the pharmacist and to be dispensed. I am already doing prescription + OTC + FRPS + Minor Ailment and the Daily Dose Scheme. Soon I think I will do the MURs and MDA as well. By the time I can run the dispensary alone d.. Wakakaka.. Ohya.. The store manager made me read his SOPs and things as well.. Maybe making me a manager too.. How I wished.

Everyday after I came back from work, was too tired to cook. Either eat bread or fruits. Seriously very tired. Sometimes will stone and do nothing till around 11 and then bath and sleep. Imagine I have not been so discipline to sleep before 12 since secondary school. And woke up early everyday to go to work. How i wished she is here. Someone to take care me. Too bad.. I can only keep missing. counting down 2 weeks more.

Days without You (Part 2)

2010-06-11T21:52:00.003+01:00

Today is exactly 1 week since we last hold our hands and plant kisses on each other cheeks. You have done your 1st week placement in Northern Ireland. And I have successfully stayed at home everyday awaiting for you to online. I would say I missed you dearly and nothing is more painful than awaiting the person I loved - You. No matter how silly and 'bodoh' you are, I will still smile whenever I heard your voices.

Now the World Cup fever is here. Everyone is watching football and betting as well. Drinking and cheering for their favourite team. The glorious World Cup is the pride of every man who likes to run and chase the ball around on a field with another 21 men together.

But I am a different man. I do like World Cup. Surely I am proud when I lifted it. I wished to be the Player of the Tournament as well as to be the Top Scorer and winning the Golden Boot. Just that this World Cup can only be lifted by me alone. And FOREVER or at least a long long time till I meet Jesus Christ.

My World Cup 2010.

Days without You (Part 1)

2010-06-07T10:17:00.002+01:00

Its the 3rd day since you left. Memories of us separating at the Hull train station was still clearly playing in my mind every now and then. No hours of phone calls and web-cams could replace the happiness when we were together. I miss your soft touches. I miss your presence no matter where I go. I rather stay inside the room and stare blankly awaiting for your return. Today, you will be starting your placement. I already missed you so much coz I couldn't see you when I woke up. At least 9hours more till I can see you on skype. 3more months to go. We have to brave this hard moments till we hold our hands again. Mizz ya.

A silly girl I called Girlfriend

2010-05-30T20:49:00.005+01:00

Needless to introduce much, her name is Josephine. Let the photos do the talking.

She likes to think a lot and most of the time is thinking how to bully me later on.

This is how she looks like when she failed to bully me.

She loves the sun a lot which I hated anyway. :P

She loves to camwhore even moments after falling down as a result of her "aku pandai menaiki basikal". Pity her and pity me too coz I got worried that I almost shitted in my pants.

She loves to sleep. A LOT..

She loves flowery dresses.. Which I refused to comment any further. I like white. Haha.

Camwhoring again. Caught me while I wasn't looking.

Haha.. Her ugly face.. When kena poked by me.

Anyway, I think she is pretty, sexy and hot for me :)

Last but not least. I love her.

A Lost Man Story

2010-05-20T17:57:00.002+01:00

I am Lost.
I am Tired.
I am Dirty.
I am Hungry.
I am Sleepy.
I am Sick.
I am Old.

Headache.
Back pain.
Stiff neck.
Legs sore.
Stomach cramped.
Messy hairs.
Dirty nails.
Red swollen eyes.

To describe a man who is lost in the middle of nowhere.
He was once happily at home with good foods and comfy bed.
Suddenly he woke up the next day in a place beyond his recognition.
His shouts fall into deep cave.
His vision limited by the horizon of the sea.
The air he breathes is thickening.
And he sweats profusely.

Searching for the way to go home.
A place he knew he would be save and loved.
By walking, cycling, bus, train, ship, aeroplane and maybe time-travelling machine.
Sometimes he is fortunate.
To find resthouse between his journey home.
They were never perfect in his eyes.

Some without food.
Some without bed.
Some without shower.
Some has everything but Love.
And so he moved on to searh for Home.

He left with a still tired body and soul.
Weary eyes.
Trembling legs.
Stiffened shoulders.
Each step he took.
A step nearer to home he is convinced.

Feeling Old

2010-05-18T22:34:00.002+01:00

Exam in less than 36hours time and I am still studying hard since yesterday. I know what everyone will say bout me. Stupid Idiot Fool or Crazy. I am just being LAZY.. Lost interest in Pharmacy since last semester as I felt we Pharmacy students are over-burdened with many unnecessary modules which are not applicable in our career. Since they felt that its useful and a necessity for us to learn then I have to learn lo. By meaning I learn doesn't guarantee I do well in exam ma. Haha. Anyway, passing the modules is merely just a responsibility for me to do to please my parents and guarantee myself a job next year. And I thought I am still the guy who studied last minute and managed to pull the string everytime. But I guess age has caught up with me. I couldn't sleep late in the wee hours anymore and any sleep less than 8hours is killing me the subsequent day. Sigh. I'm getting old. Oh God please. I am still 23.

Happy 1st Month

2010-05-05T20:25:00.002+01:00

A double-special today - Gary's birthday and my 1st month anniversary with JoJo. With our love story started in Liverpool and then over the Easter holiday, I would say we have went through much although not a lot enough. Everything is going well and healthy I would define our relationship becoz we have had our sweetest time and as well some minor conflicts. That is why I said its healthy coz there are balance in this relationship. We are still new and learning about each other but certainly the love is growing strong. Would like to thank God for blessing me with her coz she has brought back life to me by making me smile, laugh, jealous, emo and etc. :) And would like to thank my friends for being supportive as well.

JoJo - I blek U.

The Classics of FB-Rape

2010-04-28T03:42:00.003+01:00

Started as a very good intention to invite my frenz to come over to my place to have dinner. Coz I miss them a lot as I have not seen them for quite a long time ever since March. So after making a "good" dinner for them, this fat naughty girl who ate a lot (ate two slices of bread immediately after dinner) went to my computer to fb-rape me. So one thing led to another, the other girl left her fb open on my computer and then went home. Hence, I fb-raped her and found the fun of doing it. Was so fun. Well, it was a happy day. :P

And finally she found out.. :P

Moments Captured since 1986 till NOW

2010-04-26T00:14:00.010+01:00

1986- Baby Gideon (LOL. This isn't me.. I wasn't that cute either.)

1992- In Genting with Grandma@Ah Jia with sister (Ivana) and cousins (Yi Yang, Kai Wen, Po Chien, Woei Hann and Yi Hwang). Woei Liang still not born yet.

Around 1994-1997- With cousins at my uncle house in Cheras Perdana.

2000- Me and the ACS team after MSSD Kinta with me being the Under-15 Singles (runner-up) and Doubles (Champion).

2001- This is my 15 years old look. At Botanical Garden, Penang.

2002- Form 4B. Was still thin n fit. Standing 1st row 5th from left (your right hand).

2004- At Kek Lok Si Temple. Still fit. Still wearing that long sleeve even now 2010.

2005- ACS Badminton Club. Me (president) Alex Chew (VP) Li Leng (Treasurer) Yang May (Secretary). Ms. Mindy the teacher adviser.

2005- Me and my family after my Baptism on the Christmas day at Elim Gospel Hall.

2006- Me in the SIT College library.

2006- Me and Kam Mun.

2007- Me Beng SangLeng and KamMun at Kim Gary, Sunway Pyramid.

2007- Me with the man I respected most (Mr Chia) after receiving my Outstanding Student Award.

2007- Me and Daniel and Rayvin inside the Gua Tempurung.

2007- Me and Tick Siang (my best fren in UNMC). Taken in Hospital Selayang.

2007- Taken during the Malaysia Pharmacy Sport Carnival in UNMC. Runners-up in both singles and doubles. Was badly injured after the game.

2007- Taken at Levi's Shah Alam with Yi Yang (my cousin). Worked for uncle during Hari Raya.

2008- Taken during our Pharmnotts paintball session in Bukit Jalil.

2009- With Ee Teen, Jia May and Jeanette. Taken at CCM in Seremban.

2009- Me and Melody in Sunway Hotel before our uni Annual Dinner.

2009- Taken in Ipoh with former ACSians. (Thats not my wife and baby :P )

2009- Me finally in Singapore after many many years.

2009- The FAMILY PHOTO in a studio. A total of 19.

2009- Me and the other 6 cousins (Po Chien, Kai Wen, Yi Hwang, Woei Hann, Woei Liang and Yi Yang). Sister (Ivana) missing.

2009- When all 5 of us just reached UK. Taken in London. (Gary Kevin Eason and Ni Ni)

2009- Taken with all the beauties after our poster presentation in Yr3. (Melody, Zhi Xuan, Eason, Jia May, Chin Yunn, Li Theng and Chee Lynn).

2009- Me with Gary and Kevin at the Old Trafford. Manchester United is my No.1 club.

2009- Me and Josephine during the Nottingham Malaysian Games. (Noticed my hair is growing long)

2009- At Hooters eat unlimited chicken wings and unlimited views of C-cups & above. With Hao Yan, Lu Xian, Ni Ni, Kevin and Gary.

2009- When snow started in Nottingham. In front my house with gary.

2009- Christmas Dinner at 38 Beeston Rd. With a lot of nice foods and games. (Alex, Suet Ling, Albert, Aaron Kumar, Julyan, Brian, Shin Hao, Kar Yong, Duncan, Li Theng, Jia May, Chee Lynn)

2010- My hair at its longest in history before my exam. Stress gila.

2010- In Birmingham National Indoor Arena. Won the Arcsaber Zlash for the fastest smash during the All England.

2010- My 1st time clubbing with ang moh. (With Vicky)

2010- In Liverpool before entering the Beatles museum.

Obsession

2010-04-24T11:57:00.005+01:00

Shopping obsession has never been worse. Ever since I started to breathe the English air, I contracted the virus strain Shopah0L1C and got the Chronic Shopping Disorder. Brands which I will never walk into their outlets in Malaysia has become my frequent 'fast-food' outlets. Started with AX, followed by CK Jeans, FCUK, Replay and the latest DKNY Jeans in my wardrobe. Many many times I told myself to stop. But I guess its either my ears aren't working or my brain is just too stubborn. Sigh. Wondering how many more I need to have before I could finally stop for good. I think I have fallen in love with Ted Baker, Superdry, Paul Smith, Polo Raplh Lauren and simply too many. Besides that, I need to wear shoes and watch as well. OMG OMG OMG. Mr Chang pls send me more $$$. I will love you more.

M.E.S.S.I

2010-04-20T21:50:00.003+01:00

LOL.. I am not blogging about Messi the Lionel Messi from Barcelona FC. It was all about my life and myself. I think I'm living a messy life. Both academically and personally. I don't know what I want to do and what I want. I just don't feel like doing anything. I just want to live aimlessly. EMO.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2010-04-19T03:00:00.003+01:00

Life is amazing and miraculous. Once a wise man told me, "The only thing in Life that is not changing is that Life keeps changing". Thinking back of my life the most important thing to me is my family (the past, present and future family members). Although they are changing constantly, growing up or older but they remained close to my heart and has given me a lot of support. Next, it would be my FRIENDS. I know I know.. Ones will argue with me that the No.2 spot should be reserved for gf/bf but my perception has changed. When I mean changed it really CHANGED!!

Not too long ago, my No.1 spot was my gf but after she left me for good/bad it seems that the world nearly ended. But family members helped me gone thru most of my worst days and the rest I relied on my friends. Friends as near as to in Ipoh and as far as to in Australia have been helpful keeping me cheerful all the time. A simple text or email was all it takes to draw a smile on my face. When the car accident happened, someone who claimed to love me before never showed any care because her phone ran out of credits forever :) Anyway, lets bygone be bygone (copyrighted from my sweet cousin Kai Wen).

I have many categories for friends right now. Hi-Bye frenz, present frenz, past frenz, close frenz, good frenz, best frenz, best frenz forever, and the TOP 4 frenz. Anyway, I would say I welcome anyone to be my fren as long as they are sincere to be my frenz. Need not to sacrifice anything or give me expensive birthday present. Just switch on your phone all the time and answer my calls whenever I find you :) Just like my phone will never be off except I am on the line with another fren in need of help.

But, if you never try to commit into our friendship then you can only expect what you deserve. Example : Never help me when I need help and only email me when you need help then you will only deserve for an email reply "I am sure you will be ok. Take care." Hahahaha. Always do to others what you want others to do to you (Copyrighted from Mr. Chia). Anyway, a friend has been upgraded her status recently. Congratz to her.

Friends are amazing when they are treat you as a fren whole-heartedly. I would say I am lucky to be blessed with many good ones. You guys will know if you are my frenz when you treated me as one. Happy happy.

My Sedap Udon Noodle with Sedap Soup

2010-04-16T03:31:00.002+01:00

Easter holidays is boring. Home alone. Nothing to do. Reluctant to start studying. Was too lazy to cook a proper meal with rice. Went to Fresh Asia and saw this pack of udon noodles. Grabbed it without thinking twice. Went home to only realised I never ate an Udon before becoz I only like to eat sushi and sashimi in Japanese restaurant. Too bad too bad. But my culinary skills were too awesome to be true. I made it my way. Started with anchovies and garlic to make the soup base. Then I put in a few (sliced) mushrooms + tomatoes and many many celery + chillies. A teaspoon of salt to make it taste better. And finally the Udon noodles and a few crabsticks. The outcome = Sour and Spicy Soup + Udon noodles. Too yummy. Self praise is no praise. Hehe.

The Easter Holiday for "Smarties" at LiverFool..

2010-04-11T01:30:00.008+01:00

(Yea I know.. It wasn't a typo error.. I purposely named it as LiverFool.. Coz I am a Big fans of Manchester United.. Liverpool FC sux big time..) All hails to the MUFC and Alex Ferguson..

Okay okay.. Not gonna insist on the MU rivalry with the Liverfools.. :P So I went to the Liverpool as my only Easter vacation. Budget was tight and I wanted a holiday desperately and the only cheap and big city in UK left for me to go is Liverpool as my last resort. Manchester and Birmingham I already can walk with both eyes closed. London is too expensive for me to go. Sigh.. Anyway, the trip was not disappointing at all. It has great shopping attractions and better food options compared to Notts. Besides that, many tourist attraction locations for me to kill my time there for 3D2N.

Upon checking in to hotel, we immediately went for food hunt coz was damn hungry. First thing came to mind was to search for good dim sum place. Well, was a bit disappointed.. Aku sangat miss Ipoh dim sum..

After treating my hungry stomach, we immediately set foot to the city centre (dunno they named it One Liverpool or Liverpool One but who cares.. still for fools :P) The shopping was like mid-heaven (Birmingham - heaven and Nottingham - earth). So happy to see so much NEW & BIG & BRANDED & NICE stores.. Luckily I have not much money left or else my dad is going to cry foul.. Haha.. Had dinner at Yo Sushi and it sux compared to the one in Notts so it was double-sux. Watched I LOVE YOU PHILIP MORRIS.. It was the most 'geli' movie I ever watched.. Jim Carrey KISSED Evan Mcgregor.. OMFG!!! The rest of the nite was a secret memories for myself to keep.

The 2nd day, we went to the Beatle Story which was a stone throw away from my hotel. Well, to be very honest I don't know what so great bout Beatles and I only heard of Beatles from my uncles that my grandpa love them a lot. Anyway, for 8.50 pounds only I might as well give myself a chance to get to know their legends. But, after reading a few paragraph of words from the beginning of the tour I immediately yawned. I really don't like to read. So the cam-whoring session started. Haha..

Hang around the Albert Dock before having lunch after visiting the Beatle Story.

Had lunch at the HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA bar and gril. The food was good. I meant really good for the standard of food in UK. Give them a thumb up.

After lunch and we headed to the Liverpool Head Pier to have a Merseyside Ferry ride. It was a 45mins ferry ride around the Liverpool sea-shore. Actually took a lot of picts but due to editor's quality control, it was not allowed to be uploaded as the crazy strong winds blew my hair like a mad man. I was thinking of sue-ing the ferry company for causing hair loss after the ride. :P

Found this amazingly ancient clock in Liverpool. This clock works by depending on the shadow from the pointer upon sunlight at different time. But I don't think it works well because UK's sun is a bit 'siao siao'. Now you see now you don't.

On the 3rd day, we found the Liverpool Chinatown. All I could say, it was in a pathetic state. Not many shops were opened. Macam tidur only even at 12pm.

Then, we found the Liverpool Cathedral. I could say this is my 1st time being frightened by something BIG. It was so huge that the building itself was like 15-20 stories high. Can be seen at almost everywhere in Liverpool city. The door itself was about 10ft tall at least. Seriously, I am very sorry to Jesus for not able to visit the cathedral comfortably. It was so big until I felt eerie when I was in it. But the cathedral was really in the state of art.

After some stupid lunch and shopping again at the One Liverpool, it was time to have dinner before we went home. Had italian dinner at the Pesto. The food was very very awesome. It was cheap and nice. 2 thumbs UP!! And thats the story of my Liverpool trip.

Hehehehe.. Just shiok shiok post this pict.. Cuz I wanted to do this post for a very long time.. Hahaha.. Always saw those sport stars doing it.. :P

Prince of Candle II

2010-04-08T01:31:00.003+01:00

Went to Liverpool for my Easter holiday. The weather forecast shown 3 cloudy and rainy days. So I went without my RayBan. (The Liverpool stories I will tell in next blog) But what I worried now is that I have became a "prince of candle". My melting point has reduced to 15C eversince I came to UK. Never did I imagined the sudden sun in Liverpool can made me red-faced and felt like having fever although there were strong cold winds. The nxt QUESTION is HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO BACK MALAYSIA like that? I am afraid of the Spring Sun and not even the Summer Sun.. I am doomed..

(Look at the sunshine... Wanna die d...)

(Beh tahan d.. Even my jacket felt warm then..)

(Its not as funny as it seems..)

(It was too bright.. I miss my rayban..)

My toxicology assignment

2010-03-31T11:31:00.005+01:00

It has been some days since I last blogged due to *no mood*. I spent hours everyday either watching HK drama or House series. I procastinated in doing my toxicology assignment and revising for my dispensing exam until the very last minute. I have a very strong belief that as long as my mood is not right and I shall do nothing else. So I spent many days to "tune" my emotions. Anyway, I failed. So until the very last minute and my "auto-pilot" region in my cerebral cortex kicks the pituitary glands to release some smelly adrenalin to make me "kan cheong" about my works. And the auto-pilot only started to work at midnite after Saturday (12am Sunday) for me to start reading my journals and completed the toxico-assignment at 1am Monday. It was due on MONDAY!! Bravery and Crazy are just divided by a thin line. Anyway, my dispensing exam is on Tuesday !! Woooohooo.. I spent less than 16 hours to read my law book and practised my scriptware exercises.. Outcome: Finger crossed.

Anyway, I would like to post some of the facts about my toxico assignment to share with some of the readers. :P (berlagak pandai ni...). The title was Biphosphonates and Kidney damage. Biphosphonates is a class of drug which has anti-resorption properties, is used to treat post-menopausal osteoporosis (PMO), steroid-induced osteoporosis, hypercalcemia of malignancy, and osteolytic bone metastases. PMO occurs due to lack of estrogen hormone which induces hyperactivity of osteoclasts in dissolving cavities in bones and thus reduces bone mineral density (BMD). Hypercalcemia of malignancy is a disease with elevated plasma calcium concentration caused by increased osteoclastic activity within bone, as a result of multiple myeloma, breast cancer or lung cancer. Then, osteolytic bone metastases is a common malignant tumors involving skeleton, where the surrounding bone is altered by means of osteoclastic or osteoblastic progression.
(The diagram of the osteoclasts very cute rite..)

The common nitrogen-containing biphosphonates used in treating these patients are zoledronate, pamidronate and ibandronate. Nitrogen-containing biphosphonates inhibits the mechanism of action of farnesyl diphosphate synthase (FPP synthase) which involves in conversion of geranyl pyrophosphate into farnesyl pyrophosphate in the mevalonate pathway of osteoclast. The disruption of mevalonate pathway affects the post-translational lipid modification (prenylation) and anchoring of small GTPases in cell membranes. Hence, the osteoclast cytoskeleton were disrupted as GTPase are responsible for integrin signaling, endosomal trafficking, membrane ruffling, apoptosis and actin assembly. Besides that, the nitrogen-containing biphosphonates acts as calcium-chelators, this prevents dissolution of calcium from bone in the extracellular space by binding and stabilizing calcium phosphate within bone matrix. Therefore, biphophonates function to increase the patient’s bone mineral density and reduces the risk of fractures.
(The mevalonate pathway)

Collapsing focal segmental glomerulosclerosis (FSGS) and toxic acute tubular necrosis (ATN) are one of the most common and severe pattern of nephrotoxicity reported with administration of IV biphosphonates due its high potency. Pamidronate and Zoledronate have been associated with FSGS and ATN respectively. Pamidronate toxicity targets podocytes and visceral epithelial cells and thus causing direct injury on podocyte and mutation of visceral epithelial cells from its terminally differentiated state. In FSGS, increased expression of proliferation marker Ki-67 in both podocytes and tubular epithelia were reported. ATN is characterized as direct toxicity of zoledronate at tubular epithelium with evidence of increased tubular expression of Ki-67 and diminished and altered expression of tubular Na+, K+ -ATPase. Biphosphonate nephrotoxicity maybe resulted from similar mechanism of action of biphosphonates on osteoclasts against podocytes, visceral epithelium and tubular epithelium. As podocytes has highly complex cytoskeleton like osteoclasts, the podocytes may experience the same in inhibitory effect of biphosphonates on its mevalonate pathway. Hence, the same mechanism of action of biphosphonates on osteoclasts has possibly resulted in development of collapsing FSGS and toxic ATN.

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2010-03-20T23:20:00.002Z

My Greatest Grandma

2010-03-19T00:56:00.003Z

Firstly, I would like to thank my cousin "Kai Wen" for giving me this photo. I think it was one of the most precious photo in my life. The reasons were very simple - I seldom took photo with grandma and we cousins seldom took photo together too. And this photo has both. Sadly, Woei Liang wasn't born yet. It was a classic photo taken at Genting Highland in 1994. I think that was my last trip to Genting Highland till I was 19 where I had a church camp there. Looking at this picture, I was definitely so innocent with that "good-boy" smile in front of my grandma. Beside me is Yi Yang (same age with me). He is my best cousin maybe due to our age. The far left was Kai Wen and then Po Chien. Both of them stay in Singapore. The girl in white shirt is my sister Ivana. We live in Ipoh. Beside her is Woei Hann (he has a younger brother Woei Liang, haven't born that time). They also live in Ipoh. Then one on far right is Yi Hwang (younger brother of Yi Yang). Both of them live in KL now. The order of our cousinhood : Me, Yi Yang, Po Chien, Yi Hwang, Kai Wen, Ivana, Woei Hann and then Woei Liang.

The lady at the top is our grandma. We used to call her "ah jia" (in hakka means granny). I think among all of us, I was the one she pampered the most. I was the first grandchild and we stays in Ipoh wherelse the other cousins were in KL and Singapore. Ivana, Woei Hann and Woei Liang comes very much later than me. I used to be a sick kid. Doctor was my best friend; seeing him weekly. My grandma took care of me while my mum was at work. Besides that, I will stay with her overnight every weekends. The connection between us was like the best of a grandma and a grandson type. I always followed her to the market. There I will always "teh" her to buy me cards or toys and food as well. I remember she likes to buy me mini cards with cartoons behind them. Ninja turtles was my favourite. Sigh.. Miss my childhood so much.. Then as I slowly grew up, I started to enjoy her cooking and always ask her to cook for my favourite dish (minced pork in sambal). Since her departure, I have not eaten any minced pork sambal. My mum doesn't know how to cook it and none of my aunts learn from her as well.

By just thinking the word of "ah jia", tears have already rolling down my cheeks. I miss her very much.. I wonder what she is doing now.. Can you visit me tonight in my dreams? I have so many things to tell you.. I have grown up a lot.. I want to take care of you.. I miss you "ah jia".. Miss u so much..

All England Badminton Championship 100th Edition

2010-03-16T01:19:00.012Z

Being the most prestigious Badminton tournament in the world after World Championship and the Thomas Cup; All England is definitely a must watch! Ever since I was a kid and started to understand badminton, I have been watching All England with my dad either on live or delayed telecast. Finally, I have reached UK for my studies and for sure I wouldn't want to miss the chance to watch it live in the stadium. So I already bought the tickets few months before the competition. And now I am already back from the All England with the most memorable memories in my head.
(The National Indoor Arena, Birmingham)

(The insight of NIA)

(Peter Gade Christensen vs Taufik Hidayat)

(Lee Chong Wei warming up with Kenichi Tago in the men's singles final)

(Lee Chong Wei won 21-19, 21-19)

(Lee Chong Wei finally lifted the All England Trophy and became the 100th All England Champion)

I witnessed Lee Chong Wei winning his first All England title. Was so proud of him.. Besides that, I met him in person in a restaurant in Chinatown on the night before his glory. Seeing him lifting up the All England trophy is happier than when I got my PMR results.. Haha.. Besides that, this trip was super worth while for me not just because I saw Lee Chong Wei won the All England and taking pict with him. It was because I also won the Yonex Arcsaber Z-slash (rrp: 190GBP). I won it from the Yonex Speed Challenge where the person with the fastest smash will win this racket. And I won it with a record of 192kmph (even faster than Nathan Robertson did). After all, I will be coming back for more next year for the 101th Edition of All England.

(Met Lee Chong Wei in Chinatown and it was reported by The Star today. I didn't blow water)

(The Smash Challenge - I am the fastest smasher 192kmph :P)

(My four legendary swords in UK now)

A walk to remember in Early Spring 2010

2010-03-09T20:31:00.003Z

An excited little boy who is jumping around and stretching his arms to reach the sky with a bright smile on his face; I would described my mood. It has been such a long time that I have lost my sense of time since I last felt like this. I was happy and it was simple. It was an evening walk. The walk was so joyous that I never stopped laughing for the whole 2 hours of it. I have never walked for so long except my exploration in Singapore. The reason was simple. I wasn't alone. I believed God has sent me the angel. The walk was sweet. Diabetic sweet. It was funny too. Too much of beautiful memories in a day. Oh Lord, am I too greedy to ask for it everyday? I dun ask for more. I just wanna be happy with the presence of the angel.

The Beautiful Spring 2010

2010-03-07T23:23:00.003Z

Spring has finally come and marked the end of winter. With beautiful sunshines everyday, I would say its gonna take me a long time to be sicked of the sun again. I thought seeing snow in winter for the 1st time in my life was the most spectacular moment. But seeing the sun again after winter will remain as the champion in my heart always.

The Tiger year was speculated to be a bad year for many Chinese zodiacs but then being myself, I believed it will bless me in one way or another. Tiger are strong and brave. We will rule and always continue to rule. I begin to love the Tiger year. I found myself has finally unlocked the hidden chamber in the heart and I am stronger than before. The year long rehabilitation has not only cured my disease but has also groomed me into a faster, stronger, smarter and a more beautiful tiger. I shall return to my crown very soon and be the King again but this time gonna be the King thats gonna be loved by everyone.

Some updates: The sun is shining brightly. Flowers are blossoming soon. Something good is happening to me. I will not disappoint my friends anymore. I shall start repaying the kindness shown to me during 2009.

How to lose a Guy in 10 Days

2010-03-02T00:44:00.002Z

1st of March was a terrible terrible day. I could felt it was jinxed almost immediately the clock struck 12am. My sleep was terrible coz I kept waking up every hour from 3am, 4am, 5am, 6am, 7am and finally 8am and I gave up my sleep. Woke up with a big headache. Then had gastric pain later in the noon which lasted the whole day even until now there is still some slight pain. To make thing worse, backache followed in the evening with sharp pain along the spine. Seriously felt like cursing the whole day. Was so emo-ed. Luckily, God is still kind to me. He sent me another Leo to cheer me up. We talked and complained bout life and some little gossips. Then we watched "How to lose a guy in 10 Days".

Story about a magazine columnist and a advertising executive getting together becoz of unknown mutual benefits. The guy tried hard to keep the girl for 10days to win the right for advertising a glorious diamond brand while the girl gave her best in losing the guy after making him fallen in love with her with all her bitchy yet cute tactics. In the end, they got what they wanted but realised they have actually fallen in love with each other. Just sweet.

I wished I could find my new gf even if she is as crazy as Andie Anderson and even calling my member Princess Sophia. I will still love her. Haha.. *Winks*

Happy 1st Year Anniversary

2010-03-01T00:01:00.002Z

Firstly, I would like to wish my BLOG its Happy 1st Birthday. It is also the exact 1 year after my broke up with her and thats the reason I started this blog. I was so unhappy back then and I couldn't share my sorrow more to anyone compared to my loyal friend, Mr. Blog. After a year, I have changed so much. From worse to worst and now bounced back for the better. I would say 2009 has not been kind to me and 2010 is slightly better in terms of relationship to me. At least, I have more time for friends now and I grew up with a better personality. Though I would say my love to her has not entirely gone and a tiny spark is all I need to get back to her but there is always a BUT. After what has happened and what I have gone thru in 2009 there is a thorn in my heart. For Jesus have taught me to be forgiving and therefore I shall love you again when you are sorry for what you have done. I have already promised myself to stay single for a year to fix thing up and now on I will move on. Until the day I have found my new star, you will always be my love.

Extreme Make Over CNY 2010

2010-02-25T20:56:00.005Z

It seems that 2010 didn't started with the right note for myself and has thus created many emotional stress on me. Hence, I have decided to do things which I usually will not do and then make a new start for myself. An extreme make over. A new Gideon Chang with a new personality. Wait to unleash the TIGER. Btw, I'm sharing a piece of good news here. My sister has scored 4A's in her STPM. So proud of her. Finally she has realized my dream too. :)

The Emo Ferris Wheel

2010-02-19T22:27:00.006Z

One of the latest hits in Notts is the Ferris Wheel situated at the Old Market Square. It has been here for more than a week and also has been tempting me to have a ride. Only that there is a minor problem as it costs me 6 pounds to ride it and I am alone. Just miss those wonderful moments I had on the Eye of Malaysia. Anyway, I took a picture of it when I was in the city.

Then I got emo yesterday. The Ferris Wheel came to my mind. I went to the city and sat in front of it for more than an hour. Took several picts. Then I had 1st haircut. Though the amount seems little to what I normally spent in UK but its still my most expensive haircut ever. 19pounds le.. In Malaysia my usual cut was just RM9. Its equivalent to almost 10 visits to barber in Malaysia or my total of haircuts in a year. OMG !! I am not gonna cut my hair anymore in 2010. Lol..

My 2nd Tears in UK

2010-02-15T16:12:00.002Z

:) The first was when I sprained my ankle a couple of weeks ago. Chinese New Year has always been my favourite festival. Not only because I will receive a lot of ang pows but I will be able to eat a lot of great great foods with my large family. With endless of visitting to do everyday, we will have a lot of games and laughters at home.

This year is very different. Apart being away from home and celebrating with frenz with limited choices of foods, it was my Tiger year. Though I have had a okay reunion dinner with quite a number of dishes, but I really missed the "Yee sang" and the BIG BIG prawns back home and my mum famous sea cucumber dish. Aku beh tahan d... Frenz came to my house to gamble and we celebrated our 1st CNY at my home with Gary, Kevin, NiNi, Hao Yan, Hau Wee, Jeanette, Michelle and Sher Leen. I was the God of Prosperity that night. Hahaha.

Then on the new year day, we had dinner at Melody's house. So touched when her mum and grandma gave me ang pow.. Thanks alot... :) But then I missed home even more.. Sigh.. Then gamble again lo.. We almost the same pool of people.. Went home and then cried when I was going to sleep. I just too depressed. No CNY No Valentine's.

Woke up this morning with Monday Blues. Its 2nd day of CNY and I need to go to lectures. 9am-4pm with a test somemore. To make matter worse, the lift gave out on me and I have to climb 3 stories of stairs to reach the lecture hall. Was so grumpy and sleepy whole day. Sigh.

The New Shopaholic

2010-02-13T02:02:00.004Z

I have been labelled as shopaholic by my friends a few months back. But I disagreed. I said it was just temporary because everything is so tempting in UK. Without doing the GBP - RM conversion, everything seems so cheap and affordable. Anyway, I have got myself a pair of Ray Ban today. It was impulsive. Absolutely out of my mind. Just because my eyes were hurt a few times by the sun this week while I was walking home, it suddenly got me the idea of getting a shades. And today I walked into a optical shop and came out with it. 108pounds. Lucky number.. Good for CNY.. Hahaha..

Handicapped

2010-01-31T20:10:00.003Z

The 5th day after the unlucky incident. The swelling has subsided. I was able to walk more and faster. The pain is lesser. It is able to move with greater angle. BUT.. Blood clots started to form around my ankle. I can feel how close my Achillis tendon is going to snap whenever I tried to bend it. I can feel that it has loosen compared to the other good one. I am not giving up. I have got myself and ankle support for 25GBP. Got myself more Ibuprofen tablets and Ibuprofen gel. I need to heal as soon as possible. I want to start running again to feel my youth. I need to start doing jumping smashes again to be adored. I need to walk fast again so that I will not being left walking alone again. I want to start cycling so that I will be ahead of the rest who are walking.

Though walking slowly has made me seen many things that I am unable to see previously. But then I am not at the age to move slowly. I need to be fast and agile. I do not want to spend so much time on walking. I have more important things to do. I hate to be sympathised. I hate it even more when I was not being sympathised. Ibuprofen has made me cranky. Ibuprofen has eaten up my self-esteem. Ibuprofen is making me crazy. I am just so frustrated when I tried to get attention from someone but it failed. If losing one leg is not enough for you to care me. I am ready to lose the other one. Or whatever it takes. But then even if I died you will only be sad but not lost.

It is just so stressful. Pharmacy is making me crazy and depressed. Every week also have a test. Meaning I have to prepare for test everyweek. Hate myself for hating local universities. Hate myself for loving challenges. Main api la. Nak tunjuk pandai la. Sekarang kena bakar baru tahu. Siapa Bodoh sekarang. Gideon Chang si Bodoh.

Brave Soul

2010-01-28T11:54:00.002Z

It was a terrible terrible night last night. I was in a match in Bingham and then I was at mid-air doing my trademark jumping smashes. I played for 2 league matches yesterday one in Notts Trent and the other in Bingham. I broke my strings on tuesday and then last night I broke another one again. Bad bad luck. Then I put in my brave soul to step into the court for my final game of the day. It started and I scored 1-0. And thats the end after this. I only remembered I was jumping very high and gave a good smash and the next thing I knew I was lying on the floor screaming in pain. I sprained my ankle so badly I thought I have broken it. It swells up so fast that all I could feel was sharp sharp pain. The paramedic came to me bandaged me and there I go to the A&E back in Nottingham. X-ray shows nothing broken. Was sent home with crutches. This morning went back to the emergency physiotherapy department. To check whether I have injured anything ligaments or muscles. I have got a minor achillis tendonitis. Forget bout badminton now. I need to be on cructhes for a week at least. And take couple of weeks before I can start running like normal. Sigh. I could only put on my brave face now. Please cheer me up.. :(

Who am I?

2010-01-24T02:38:00.003Z

As much as we have heard the phrase "You're not my cup of tea", it is used domestically for a person to reject or to deny someone's advances. Its rather a cynical or an insulting fact that I have earned the exclusive right to listen to this phrase a couple of times a year. Its not that I'm a "flower heart" guy but its just that I'm quite persistant when it comes in finding love. I remembered I was being told off by the same girl for almost 4years before she gave me a chance, which ended up in a dramatic way.

However, just a quick reflection of my entire love history. I have 2 things in common. I have always been in love with the wrong girl (if its the right one then I would still be with her). I have always been treated as the 2nd best. Why said so. I am always their best friend but never good enough to be their boyfriend. When they broke up with their boyfriend, I was always the 1st one they consulted. Always and always took my shoulders to cry on. Pity my mum always have to wash their tears away from my clothes. I never complained. When I helped them to stand strong again and confessed my love, they would say "Gideon, you're a very good guy. Thank u so much for supporting me. But I treat u as my best friend only. I don't want to lose such a good friend". Off they go to another guy. And the cycle repeats itself again and again.

But the classic of the classic was this girl. She complained that I have been a lousy boyfriend. I always made her cried and how much I always hurted her. After broke up, she went extra miles to kill my feelings. Then I slowly recovered. Took months and dozens of heineken. And then she texted me one night to ask me to tell her bedtime story to make her sleep cos she is having exam stress. WTF right. I am in UK. Do you guys know what is International Call? Even with Lebara its still costs me money. I called and made her sleep. And then when I exam and I had 5 papers in a week and many killer papers. I never receive a single text or email from her to motivate me. And today she texted me that she feel like crying because of exam stress again. I didn't called. Cos she told me "Can you make me cry? Since you're so good in doing this." WTF.. I don't have dignity one meh? I knew my mistake last time. But then do I deserve to be insulted like this especially you're the one wanted me to comfort u. Seriously, self-pity is the best I could afford for myself.

Then, there is another girl. I liked her before. She said we are just good friends and she liked another guy. Soon enough they broke up and the guy cheated on her. She came to me and cried. I sympathised her. But then again. Why come to me? Am I a professional back-up or pillow or float? When everyone is sad or broke up they came to me. When they are good they run away with another guy. I don't deserve to have my own love meh? I also need someone to love me. Seriously, I really dare not to fall in love with girl anymore. Although I have feeling to a girl already. But then, it seems that I am being someone's best friend again. Sick. Just feel like banging my head to the wall now. Period.

Post-examination

2010-01-19T02:13:00.003Z

Hahahahahaha... LOLOLOLOLOLOL... Muahahahaha... Wakakakaka...

Thats all I could said of how I felt now. Finally my Yr3 sem1 exam is officially over. After a stressful 7days with 5 exam papers.. Finally I can smell freedom and not Fasttrack or Patrick. Went to had lunch at Yo Sushi.. My most most expensive lunch ever in life. Spent about 38GBP there. Do your own exchange rate conversion. Then I bought myself a pair of Lacoste. Weee.. So happy.. My 1st pair of Lacoste.. Its on sale and for only 35GBP.. I know its still expensive but then its very cheap if compared to normal price.. So happy.. Then I saw a watch.. It was so beautiful.. Sadly her price is too much for me to bear.. 200GBP.. Dun worry baby.. After my summer placement, I gonna come and get u home. I miss u..

Non-official Officially Ended

2010-01-17T03:43:00.000Z

Yay.. I had a great great night after a very disturbing week. Went to have steamboat and KTV with frenz after my Advanced Drug Delivery Paper. Well my exam is not over yet cos I gonna have my last calculation paper on monday. But since nothing is needed to be read for calculation so I assumed my exam has ended. With god bless, I managed to pull through this paper as well. Hope I can score better marks to compensate for all the losses I have suffered from the first two papers. I really do not want to have another resit exam during my birthday day, week or month. Its not the best feeling as I was studying alone and needed to take exam on my bday and have minimal celebration. Dear God, this year is the TIGER year. Hope I can roar..

XOXO Melody

2010-01-15T20:07:00.001Z

Today was the Nutrition In Health And Disease paper. Was the most human-like paper after all. Was so happy about it. Here I would like to express my most sincere-st gratitude to Melody for reminding me all the facts for one of the question. I wrote 2 full pages of answer for it. So happy. And most important of all I managed to finish the whole paper. Yay.. So happy.. Gonna feed her with lotsa chocolates..

Bad Times

2010-01-14T18:41:00.003Z

Its not the brightest hours for every Nottingham Pharmacy Year 3 students. Everyone seems so demoralized. At least I felt I was being raped in the exam hall. Molecular Pharmacology on Tuesday and Medicinal Chemistry and Drug Design on Wednesday have actually defeated me physically, mentally, morally and sexually. YES SEXUALLY !! I was so disturbed by the thoughts of how poorly I answered the papers, I could barely feel anything down there. Was so numb. Studied so hard and everything seems like goes down the drain. But the battle is not finish yet. I still have 3 more papers to go for the next 4 days. And I am not quite in the mood to study anymore. Just wished someone could show me love and hug me tight telling me there is nothing to be afraid of. Sigh. Headache and eyesores due to long hours of opthalmic activity. Blurred visions~~~~

Molecular Pharmacology

2010-01-10T16:08:00.003Z

My 1st paper on the 12th is Molecular Pharmacology. If you think my name Gideon Chang Chun Hoong is very long. Try naming your child phosphatidylinositol 4,5- biphosphate. Then he will have the coolest nickname PIP2. Hahahahahahaha.

Updates: AMPA = alpha-amino-3hydroxy-5-methylkisoxazole-4-propionic acid

Wake up

2010-01-06T22:19:00.002Z

After a week into 2010, I could hardly tell any difference between 2009 and 2010. Just was as lazy as ever with a slightly heightened sense of pressure as my exam is starting on next Tuesday. With the rate I am studying right now, I actually repeating the history itself. It seems like I have already lost the purpose of doing Pharmacy already. I don't have the passion and desire burning in me anymore. Its not that I have forgotten my promise to God and myself few years back. Its just that I felt I am no longer myself anymore. Not a fighter anymore. Seems more like a quitter or a loser. Maybe I am just depressed. People always said that life in UK is better. Maybe its just me. I hate it here.